Catch Me If You Can (One Direction Fan Fiction)

Chapter 17

"L-Louis. . . ."

"Rae, what did he do," Zayn asked while hugging me and smoothing my hair slowly.

"W-we. . . ."

"What did you do?!"

"I made a mistake."

I pulled myself from Zayn's arms and escaped to the guest room with my things in it and locked the door behind me. I slide down the door and leaned my head back onto the door, bringing my knees up to my chest. What did I ever do to deserve my life? I wish I could just rewind everything or just die. Tears welled up in my eyes as I thought about Aunt Maria.

"Aunt Maria, why did you have to die on me when I needed you most in my life? I know I took you for granted sometimes but I still loved you. You just abandoned me. What am I supposed to do now? I miss you so much. . .I wish you were here right now."

I felt the hot tears run down my face as I began sobbing into my knees. Thoughts of the blade running across my skin ran through my head but I am stronger than that to do that to myself again.

Ten minutes later, someone was knocking on the door. I got up and wiped my eyes and sniffled. I opened the door putting a fake smile on my smile as I saw Zayn in the doorway. Zayn offered me a small smile as he stepped around me and walked through the doorway swiftly and into my room.

"Rae. . . ."

"Zayn," I say simply and don't meet his intense gaze.

"Rae, I need to tell you something that I've been wanting to get off my chest." Zayn moves in front of me taking slow strides. Zayn grabs my hands in his tentatively and interlocks our fingers together. "The first time I met you, I knew there was something different about you. I didn't know what it was then, but I do now. You make my heart beat out of my chest and send my stomach doing flips. You make me feel something that I have never felt toward any other person. I hate seeing you sad. At first I just thought of you as a sister that I needed to protect because I could never hurt Louis since was still in love with you all this time but once I got to know you more, I realized it wasn't just a sister love I had for you but it was a romantic love." Zayn looks into my eyes intently and then his gaze drops down to my lips slowly. "Rae, I love you," he whispers slowly.

My heart skips a beat as I try to take all of Zayn's words in. Zayn loves me. He really loves me. Do I love him or do I just lust after him. I think I love Louis too. Louis was my first love and no matter what, I'm always going to have feeling for him. Louis and I just had a heated make out session and if we weren't interrupted, I'm sure things would have gotten even more intense. "Zayn. . . ."

"Rae, I know you still love Louis. It's understandable, after all, he was your first love, but he keeps repeatedly hurting you. Louis told me what happened. . .I may or may not have punched him. . . ."

I laughed in response to the thought of Zayn punching Louis. For some reason, my heat soared when Zayn punched Louis. Zayn cares a lot about me.

"Zayn."

"Yes?" Zayn looked at me hopefully as he squeezed my hands in his. He moved his head down and took a step closer to me.

I met my gaze with Zayn's and moved closer to him and whispered,"I need some time to think everything through. You just told me you're in love with me and my feelings and thoughts are all jumbled. I just don't want to lead you on if I mistake my feelings for something else. I don't want to hurt you or lead you on. You don't deserve that, Zayn."

Zayn let go of my hands with a small smile full of so many emotions. "I understand." Zayn stepped back from me, giving space between us. "Talk to me when you're ready. I'll be ready to listen to you. Take all the time you need, love." With that, Zayn turned around and exited my room swiftly.