After our little make out sesh, we decided to cuddle some more, I've needed this, I've needed him, I hope he needed me as much as i needed him.
Gus' pov Wow. Just wow, I wasn't expecting anything like that. I really did need that, to feel vulnerable with her again, I haven't felt comfortable like that since she left. As I was tracing her tattoos, I thought I'd shoot my shot and ask the question I've been wanting to ask since she left. "Des, can we restart please? I need you, I can't function without you?" I say looking up to her. I couldn't read her expression, it was strange, it was like doubtfulness and confusion, I didn't know what to expect at this point. " yes, yes we can, just please don't hurt me again okay? I can't deal with that again" she says tearing up. Thank god. I move up to her level and kiss her forehead. I know cringey right but still. " I can promise you this, it will never happen again, me living in this world without you isn't worth living in" I say looking into her eyes. Those fucking eyes, I could get lost in them.
Des' pov
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Incoming call from trace ❤️ Shit I think to myself. As I'm answering it gus comes out from his shower. Well fuck. Trace - well? Des - uhm it just happened. As I say that gus pops up in the frame. Trace - Des go out the room a min? As I start walking off gus gestures for me to stay so I sit at the edge of the bed. Trace - peep you better not fuck this up again or I promise you I will hunt you down. Gus - I won't, not this time trace. Trace - you better not, you didn't have to deal with the crying, the breakouts, the anger she felt towards me for ever introducing you both. She hated me for the first few weeks, so if you hurt her, I simply hurt you? Gus looked over at me with hurt in his eyes, I just looked away. Gus - uhm yeah sure, I'm gonna look after her I promise, nothing will hurt her, nothing. Trace - right put her back on. Des - hey I'm back, what did you say? That I wasn't allowed to hear? Trace - nothing Des, I'm happy for you both, I'll see you soon okay? Love you. Des - love you trace, bye. With that the phone call ended. " Des?" Gus says with worry. "Yeah? What's up?" " I didn't know you felt that way or even acted like that towards trace" " I know I didn't mean to act like that towards him but I felt such anger towards him for ever inviting me to the studio that day, I hated ever thinking about you so anytime I did I went on a rampage, that's when the drugs came into play" I say organising random stuff on my dresser. I felt a pair of hand wrap around my shoulders like he was about to choke me out or perform some weird body slam on me. " i love you okay? I hope I can prove that to you, I don't want to ever make you feel like that ever again and if I do please tell me? Call me, anything? I can't ever loose you again, not now, not ever" he whispers into my ear. I don't know what to say so I just turn around and bury my face into his chest, I'm guessing he heard my little sniffles because he lifted my face up and wiped away my tears, I've never had anyone care enough about me to do that, the only person to ever do that was my mother.
