As I went to sit on the sofa, I felt gus following me, next thing you know bex and trace had him pinned against the wall.
"Seriously stay away from her" trace said sternly.
They let go of him and he stormed off.
"Hey, you okay?" Bex asked.
As soon as he said that I broke down
"how could anyone do this to a person that they claim to love, I know that he's done it in the past but why me? Maybe I thought I could "change" him but I was fooling myself wasn't I" I said sobbing into bexey's shoulder.
Trace came over and joined us on the sofa, both of them hugging me from both sides. I felt like a filling to a sandwich.
For the rest of the day, both of them did everything for me, felt like I had two butlers or something.
"Right we're heading out, need anything else before we go?" Trace says.
"No thank you, thanks for today guys, you've both been great" I say standing up from the kitchen stool.
After they left they both decided to FaceTime me so I didn't feel alone.
" don't you think someone should go check on him?" I say between breathes.
Trace looked at me as if to say "wtf are you thinking?" And bex just said "no".
"Right fine, whatever, I'll check on him, i know we just had a fight but I want to make sure he's okay?" say ending the phone.
Skip car ride.
I go to the only place I know he'll be.
"Gus?" I sigh getting to the top of the hill.
He just looks up to me and plops his head back down between his knees.
"Des what are you doing here?"
"I wanted to make sure you were okay?"
"Gus, I know I should hate you right now but I can't" I say sighing once again.
He just sat up and handed me his roll up and patted a space next to him.
As I sat down he threw his arm around me and brought me closer towards him. About an 20 minutes later i spoke up.
"We should talk about this? I'll let you tell your side of the story first okay?"
"Right okay, uhm basically we had just finished a show and I was all hyped to see you and the adrenaline and stuff, so I decided to call Layla for some xans because we were thinking of throwing a party, anyway she came and we took some xans together" he says whilst rolling a Blackwood.
"Some xans later she threw herself at me, I swear it didn't mean anything, I think the xans she gave me were laced with something, I'm not using that as an excuse but I think they were, I didn't intentionally mean to hurt you, I promise I really do" he said sticking his pinky out.
It takes me a few seconds to connect our pinky's, he looks up at me waiting for a response.
"Okay, uhm I forgive you but that doesn't mean we're back together okay?"
His facial expression changed real quick.
"But that doesn't mean we won't get back together, I need you to earn my trust okay?" I say lifting my head up.
"Okay, I'm going to try my hardest okay, I will, I can't let you go Des, I love you to much to do that" he says locking eyes with me.
I take the Blackwood from him and spark it up.
I look over to him and take a puff from it, I decide to lean in with it still in my mouth, of course he starts to lean in, we finally connect our lips, god I needed this, I needed to be vulnerable with him, I need to start being vulnerable more often, as I back away he blows the smoke out and smiles.
I scoot back over under his arm and rest my head on his shoulder, that's the last thing I remember.
