heedless by romanshome

insecure

[ Advice : When someone cheats on you, it is NEVER your fault. There is nothing wrong with you. Your partner, is just too insecure with themselves and believes that they cannot fulfill their place as your lover, which is why they committed the act. Don't change anything about yourself. ]

Athena had never been insecure before.

Ever since he had asked her to be his girlfriend in fourth year, Scorpius had showered her with compliments that threw her over the moon. Ones that would make a girl develop hearts in her eyes fir the boy before her—and she fell for him. Hard. He caught her in his arms, protecting her from heartache, but when she had caught him with that girl in the bathroom.....

He retracted his hold. Let her crush into the ground and stomp on her with the heel of his boot like a mere bug. As if he didn't promise her that he would never hurt her. That she had tarnished the idea of being with any other girl after meeting her. That he couldn't fathom being without her— because she was there for him. For when his mother passed. When he became an alcoholic. When she slept beside him because he had night terrors about his mother's death.

She was there to comfort him. To aid him back into the light when he was dragged down into the darkness.

And how did he repay her?
He cheated on her. Touched another girl. And it all began adding up.
He kept disappearing lately.
"And where were you, hm?"

His hand flew to her waist, bringing her closer. His scent of cologne wafted up her nostrils as he slightly rubbed and down the side of her waist, the fabric of her sweater warming her. His hues bored down at hers.

"Clyde needed help with something. It doesn't matter," he murmured, delving down for a kiss. She wanted nothing more than to press her lips against his warm, inviting ones—but she was also very private. She wasn't comfortable kissing in front of her friends, except if it was just a peck. She never really was fond of public affections.

And when she had been sick. He left her side to probably go see....her. He wasn't there for her as she was for him. She was extremely annoyed with herself. She didn't hate Scorpius as much as he hated herself. She could've saved herself from heartbreak, but she was blinded by the fact that she didn't want to lose him—so she let him use her.

After-all, it's better being used than being thrown away completely.

Her self-esteem was in the ground. The one question ran through her brain with an imprint on her brain. One that she wanted to answer desperately, but didn't know how.

What did she do wrong?

She wasn't enough. Her entire being, everything she had given him, wasn't enough. She put the oxygen she breathed into this relationship, both her heart and soul—and every waking moment wanting to be with him...and it wasn't enough. He didn't want her. He wanted that girl. Who looked the exact opposite of her.

Pale skin. Bright eyes. Smooth, silky hair.