I'm sorry ( sanegiyuu)

Pt1

Giyuu pov
I want to die

I always have

I miss my sister

Sabito

Everyone

But now I have sanemi I love sanemi so much . So much I would fight for him . And he loves me for some reason ,  I don't understand why anyone would love me, lazy , careless, rude, stupid, ignorant, and I don't take care of myself. It must be a pain. I have been having more thoughts like these , I just wish I could be happy . Like look at tanjiro , I want to be like him , has trauma but is able to look past it , loves everyone, can handle the weight of the world , kind , takes care of everyone . That's like the opposite of me .
But here I am, being cuddled by sanemi, his snoring slowly putting me to sleep as these thoughts invade my brain , I don't always think like this mainly when I give my brain time to think , like now. I love the comfort and warmth of sanemi's body and arms pressed up against me and his chest goes up and down as he breathes . I love him . He loves me I think , I'm pretty sure he does just my they way he smiles at me , hugs me, cuddles me, kisses me, says " I love you " to me . I'm pretty sure . And I know it would be hard to let someone you love that much go , be I need to let him and everyone in my life go sometime , and not that I want to end our relationship fast I love him so so so so so much but I just don't feel like living anymore.