You, me and I

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Raya
I opened my eyes and I knew I was in hospital. I could smell everything. I sat there for a second and smelt his perfume before I could see him. I turned and saw him standing by the corner with the most saddest face ever. He tried to smile as he walked towards me and kissed my forehead.
Siya: Hi
I looked at him confused.
Me: Hi
Siya: how you feeling?
Me: Am okay
Siya: that good to hear.
I looked at him and I saw he wasn't okay. He tried to smile but nothing was real. Before I could ask him anything his family walked in smiling and they had food and flowers and I smiled as his mom greeted me and hugged me but then they looked at me weird and Siya shake his head no. My mind was going on over ride as I looked at them. I closed my eyes and I remembered that I was kidnapped by Denver and I was bleeding so much and I opened my eyes with so much fear.
Me: Denver
Siya walked closer and held me.
Siya: You safe now.
Me: I was bleeding so much out of nowhere and....
Siya: Shhhhh
I allowed him to rock me.

Siya
I really didn't know how to go about this. How do you tell the woman you love that she just lost the baby? How do you tell her that the person you trusted as a friend is the one responsible for her loss. I sat there rocking her for sometime and I turned and looked at her.

Raya
He looked at me with tears in his eyes and I felt my body shiver.
Me: What is it?
He tried smiling but that didn't work so he just looked at me for sometime than placed his hand on my tummy.
Siya: we were pregnant
I was quiet for sometime and looked at him.
Me: Were? As in no more?
He nodded and I felt my body shiver. Is he saying I miscarried?
Me: What are you saying to me.
I asked with my voice shaking and he looked at me with tears in his eyes and I felt my heart rip out of my chest as I screamed crying. I heard the doctors running in and giving me injections to help calm me down as his words kept playing over and over in my head. Am no longer pregnant!!

Siya
The next couple of months were hard with Raya falling into depression and having school and also with Denver being in the wind. I felt like i was failing her as a husband and I didn't know what to do. I eventually graduated from school and it was a bitter sweet moment as I went up and took my diploma and smiled back to the crowd of my whole family screaming. My eyes locked with my wife and I saw her smile for the first time ever since we lost the baby. She looked happier today as I walked towards her and gave her the most soul crushing hug ever.
Me: I love you so much.
Raya: I love you more.
My heart just exploded with so much emotions. Its been a year since our child lost and some months were worse than the others and the fact that I never found Denver kept on bugging me and made me feel like I was a loser.
We walked out and she looked at me smiling.
Me: You smiling
Raya: Am happy
Me: Are you?
Raya: I know its been a tough year but you graduated
Me: I did
Raya: Now we can go home
Now that took me back so I looked at her confused.
Me: am not understanding
Raya: you got your diploma so we can leave.
Me: What about yours? You still have a whole year of studying
I saw tears in her eyes as she took a deep breath.
Raya: I dont want to be here anymore. You got your diploma and we can go back home.
Me: What about your degree
Raya: they are many other universities in SA . Ill deal with it that side.
Me: but...
Raya: i cant be here anymore Siyanqoba. I don't want to be here anymore living in fear that somewhere Denver is plotting something. I just want to go home!!!
I looked at her and nodded.
Me: Okay
She smiled and nodded as I looked away. This is not sitting well with me....