Mga Piling Sandali || A Tricia Robredo One-Shots ||

losing you to love me || last minute, changes AU

A/N: As I promised. *drum roll* eto na guys! Long chapter ahead! I advised reading, 'last minute, changes' first to get the plot however do expect that this plot will be different since this is an alternate ending starting from their conversation sa coffee shop.

Food for thought, actually planning to make this a book because I kinda like how the changes in events but I hesitated since this would be my first time writing a book. I tried before to write one but the motivation in me ay nawala huhu. But still, I will try. 

Anw, thank you for your votes, comments, suggestions, and support! enjoy reading as I enjoy writing for y'all!

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"Are you out of your mind, Y/N?!"

Narinig kong saad niya na pagalit. I clasped my fingers on the table while I bowed my head in shame.

Andito kami ngayong dalawa sa coffee shop. The one we used to visit to unwind but the ambiance of this place has changed ever since I left. The serenity that once I felt when I am with her before changed into a gloomy one. The memories in my mind came flooding one by one of how peaceful it was when I sit beside her while she was occupied with her notes, and or the times when she would casually sip her coffee before taking her time to flip the page of the book. Restless and random conversation from mindlessly staring into each other's eyes and we would both smile like an idiot but things have changed. And I am one of the reasons for it.

Uminom siya ng tubig upang pakalmahin ang sarili niya. I opened my mouth to speak but she held her index finger up to indicate to shut my mouth. I pursed my lips patiently as she carefully put down the empty glass on the table.

"Y/N...what you wanted is impossible. Things aren't like it used to be. I cannot accept this." Binalik niya sa akin ang inabot kong white envelope na may lamang visa at ticket papuntang America.

Pilit kong tinatago ang pagkadismaya na bumubalot sa aking kalamnan at pilit na ngumiti sa kaniya. "I know you still love me, Trish. I can feel it. Give me an opportunity to make up what I have done to you and—"

"Y/N, I am engaged."

"I don't c—"

"Don't dare to say to me that you don't care because I do, Y/N. For all the times that you knew my feelings. What did you do?" She emphasized every last word while raising an eyebrow at me, challenging me to speak but still waiting for me to respond. Natameme ako at hindi nakasagot sa kaniya kaya tumawa siya ng mapakla. "If you don't want to say, then I will. Pumunta ka ng America without us—without me knowing. No contacts and no references kung saan ka namin pwedeng tawagin o hanapin. I tried so hard for many months to wait for you but I am lost in the middle of the sea. I was supposedly planning to confess to you but you were nowhere to be found. I cannot wait any longer for you, Y/N, that's why I moved on."

Napakapit ako sa hita ko nang maramdaman kong parang may tumutusok sa puso ko. Feeling ko I have been stabbed with a sword at my heart by her words. Pinipigilan kong tumulo ang mga luha ko dahil hindi ko kayang makita niya akong nasasaktan. Nakakahiya.

Bumuntong hininga ako at humugot nang lakas ng loob para tanungin siya. "Can I still try to ignite your feelings for me?" I pleaded. I maybe looked desperate right now but I couldn't care less. I am really that desperate in trying to win her back even though there are not enough possibilities and hope in my heart but I am still trying because that is what I lack before that I have now. The courage to pursue her. The courage to fight for her, for us.

She shooked her in response.

I feel my heart crack in my chest. I fought hard for the tears that are trying to escape my eyes as my vision became blurry.