LETTERS TO JUPITER FROM MERCURY ✷ marauders era

I

dear james,

it's been now thirty days since
i've send you the first letter.
i got one from you ten days ago,
saying that everyone were alright,
that sirius wasn't ready yet to write
me some words. i don't blame him,
i'm, myself, not ready to wrote
him an entire letter, it's way simple
to ask if he's alright through my
letters to you.

i want to turn back time so badly
james. to stood against my parents.
to follow sirius. to live a new life.
with you. every days, every nights,
i wish i was born differently. that
my life now, was just a dream and
that i would woke up next morning
with all of you.

i wish for a lot of things james, but
do i really deserve that ? i don't
think so. i think i deserve the life
i have now.

with love,
R.A.B