LETTERS TO JUPITER FROM MERCURY ✷ marauders era

R

dear regulus,

it's me, james. it has now been
four months and twenty-four days
since you died. you-know-who
killed you. but, sirius and i are pretty
sure that there was an other reason
hidden in your death. because, you
were loyal to your family and not
a traitor like the news said. i know it
because it was a part of you that i loved
with everything i have.

to talk about good news, i moved with
lily in a little house, hidden. sirius and
remus often visit, just like peter, mary,
marlene and dorcas. we are...happy, i
think. even though everything is
different now. because, you're not here
anymore.
i miss the little black who was bothering
sirius and i before. talking about him,
he is right next to me, talking sweet
little shit with remus again. he doesn't
even know that i'm writing to his
brother.

when we found out about your death,
sirius collapsed. he was crying so hard,
he couldn't – no, he wouldn't believe
that. he wouldn't believe that his precious
little brother had died. he felt guilty for
a couple of weeks, telling that if he had
taken you with him that night, the night
he left your house, then maybe things
would have been different.

it was hard for him, for everyone
actually. for pandora too, she was
devastated. but, i have this feeling that
pandora knew what you were doing
and that she knows the cause of your
death.

as for me, i regret a lot of things now.
such has telling you that you disgusted
me because you were a death eater.
i can't really forgive myself for that,
because now i realise that, maybe,
you needed me. and i was so blind before
that i didn't even noticed it.

but i don't regret meeting you or falling
in love with you, reggie. i was so happy
with you.

now, i have to let you go.

but, wherever you are now, i hope
you know that a part of me will
always love you.

goodbye regulus arcturus black,
james