Don't Regret...

Chapter 15

Life is hard. Much harder than you think. When you think you got it all right something comes along and ruins it for you. My past life was hard. I should be thankful I wasn't poor, but yet I wasn't rich. I just had enough money basically. I hold onto my past not letting it go just so I can learn from it...

That day the one where Lilly, Zayn, Niall and I were talking wasn't ended. I know there will be another time where we will have a full convocation about me. I ended up in my room the whole day. Everyone tried to get me out. They said they put food in front of my door if I was hungry. However, I wasn't; I lost my appetite. I had no feelings at all at the moment.

It's around 6pm down .
*knock knock*
"I know you are probably angry Emily, but I want to speak to you." Niall spoke from the other end of the door. These knockings were getting on my nerves I couldn't take it. I got up fast and opened the door. There stood Niall shocked that I finally opened the door. I grabbed him be the collar of his shirt and pushed him in my room and locked my door.

"What is it you want to talk about Niall?!" I crossed my arms

"Everything"

"Starting by what"

"Why can't you let anyone in Emily"

"It is none of your fucking business"

"You I thought you put on an appearance to fool everyone Emily and deep down some where you had the good in you. It turns out you are bloody cold hearted."

"Clap, clap, wow you found out something; boo hoo it hurts so much" I rolled my eyes

"I know it was your plan Emily."

"What was my plan Horan?"

"You went up to Simon with the idea of this date shit to get more fans."

My eyes widen. Simon said he wouldn't tell Niall it was my fucking idea! He noticed my reaction and knew it was true so he continued to say...

"All you care about is your self. You are selfish as fuck. I know I hardly know shit about you. But your past has turned you into a monster Emily!" Niall shouted at me

"A monster eh? Then you really don't know shit! I don't care what you think! You are right I don't care about people because the last time I cared for someone it felt like that person stabbed me a hundred times through my heart! Fuck all of you! Trying to help to me to be seen as good! Fuck that shit. Can't you see I don't want anyone to help me!" I rise my voice louder than his.

We are glaring at each other silently, breathing heavily.
In our eyes you could see we were debating if we should say something else. In our head you could hear many thought of planning our death.

A sound of a ringtone from a phone interrupted our glaring session. I recognised it was my phone. I picked it up from my bed and answered it.

"Hello Emily is Niall next to you" Simon asks

"Yes" I grit out

"You two are alone...if not go somewhere private"

"We are alone now"

"Is it on speaker"

For fuck sake Simon is asking a lot of fucking questions.

"Yes it is Simon" Niall replies

"Tomorrow you guys are going on romantic date and that is the day Niall will ask Emily to be his girlfriend and of course you say yes and you post that you are official understood."

"Understood" we reply

"Good and there better be no mistakes!" The phone call ends there.

However, both of us did not end glaring at each other.

"I have got to go get the date ready." His voice was filled with venom, which made me flinch a bit.

"Ok" my throat has gone dry due to the screaming before.

Niall got out of my room making sure to shut the door loudly to show he is angry from me. All I could do was just sigh and lay down on my bed. Trying to sleep...