Impurity [Espresso and Madeleine fanfic]

Impurity an espresso and madeleine story

(Humanized because meow meow 🥰🥰🤰)

Madeleine laid in bed, tossing and turning trying to fall asleep, he had a bit of a rough, tiring day patrolling, all he wanted to do was to fall asleep but when he tried to close his eyes he couldn't, his impure thoughts kept him awake, "why do I keep thinking about such impure things" he whined to himself, he wanted these thoughts out of his head, even when he tried to deny it, he knew the reason why he was thinking about such things, he had been fancying a certain mage, at first the crush wasn't that big, sure he had sometimes had thoughts about holding hands with the mage, he also thought about receiving small kisses from him, but he never had these kinds of thoughts, the thoughts followed him around all day, he felt as if the thoughts were taunting him, they stopped him from doing certain tasks and things, he hadn't been able to hold a conversation with another for more than a few minutes because these horrible thoughts snuck back into his head, usually he would try and visit the tired mage or if the mage had left his house Madeleine would try and chat with him, but today he wouldn't even dare look at the mage, such impure thoughts made him feel disgusting, horrible and dirty, he swore he'd never thought of these before, so why today, why?

Madeleine sighed and forced himself up, he had hoped that maybe a late night walk would calm him down and make him think about other things, he changed out of the cozy pajamas he was wearing and put on a casual outfit, he couldn't be bothered to put his armor on and get ready when nobody would be up at a late hour like this anyway, he looked at the clock,

4:15

He walked to his front door, he felt a bit dizzy due to how tired he was, once he got out he felt a cold breeze hit his skin, much better than how it was in his house, he looked around to see if any others were also out, he was right, no sane person would ever be awake this late, let alone outside this late, well everyone but the coffee mage, espresso, the one who had been inside madeleines head all day, as Madeleine started to walk around he felt worried, usually when he went out he'd have his armor, shield and sword with him so if any sort of thing tried to attack him he'd be ready, but he felt unprotected, like if anything came up to him now he wouldn't be able to do anything, suddenly Madeleine realized he walked a good distance from his house, he looked to be in a very familiar area, then he remembered why it felt so familiar, espressos house was around here, although Madeleine wanted nothing to do with espresso at the moment, due to him being afraid that those thoughts would spill out if he was around espresso, he wanted to go in, or atleast say hello to espresso, just to calm his nerves, he felt his heart beating faster and faster as he was approaching espressos house, he didn't realize he was holding his breath until he let out a large exhale, as he approached espressos door, after ringing the bell ad knocking, he realized he should just go back home, as he started to walk away relieved that nobody came, all of a sudden he heard the door open and light from a candle espresso was holding illuminated espresso and his features, Madeleine felt his face heat up, he didn't know why but it did, seeing espresso actually answer for him made him feel ..pleasant, excited? He didn't know, espresso hasn't really recognized Madeleine at first, not only due to small light that was on him but also the clothing he was wearing, Madeleine would always be dressed in his armor or atleast something fancy, madeleines hair looked messy, his eyes were usually a beautiful blue but right now his eyes looked more .. desaturated and pinkish purple.

"Madeleine? Why are you here, shouldn't you be resting?"

Madeleine felt his eyes widen a bit and his heart beat faster, espressos words sounded more concerned than insulting, there was a small part inside of Madeleine that thought maybe espresso worried for him, Madeleine tried to speak but his throat went limp, his words came out stuttered and messy

"I-I was just w-wanting to...."

He couldn't finish his sentence, he looked down embarrassed, why was he acting like this

"I-I'll get going now!"

He shouted out and tried to speedwalk

"Madeleine."

Madeleine felt like Espressos words pierce through his skin, they felt loud but they weren't, Madeleine felt his palms start to get wet even though it was cold out, infact it wasn't just his palms, his whole body started to heat up,

Espresso had never showed any affection to Madeleine, not even a smile, so why did Madeleine even like him so much, why did espresso not shoo him away already, why did espresso say something when Madeleine was leaving,

"Madeleine, are you alright..you seem sickly, your whole body looks to be heating up, you look tired, and your face is all red."

((Shit! Was it that noticeable?!
Madeleine thought to himself, He felt nauseous, he wanted these feelings to go away so he could say something, something normal, but he couldn't

"Espresso can I ..err come inside...?"

Madeleine felt as if his words weren't his, as if he couldn't control what came from his mouth, why did he say that, he didn't want to go inside the house, so why did he ask, to much of his surprise espresso had nodded his head and let him come in

As soon as he entered espressos house he smelt an intense coffee aroma, espresso had a beautiful house everything looked so neat, Madeleine had realized that he never went inside espressos house before, as Madeleine looked around more he saw photos on shelves along with numerous stacks of books, Madeleine admired the perfect everything looked, as he was looking around he felt espressos hand grab his arm and espresso had put his other hand on Madeleines head to feel his temperature, Madeleines face started to heat up at the touch,

"Madeleine you're burning up.. do you have a fever?"

Was espresso on some sort of drug?! Why was he being so nice? Did he actually care about Madeleine...?

"I-I'm not sure, I haven't been feeling well all day but I don't think it's a fever!"

Madeleine blurted out, his eyes looked anywhere else but at espresso, he didn't want to see what espressos expression looked like,

"Madeleine.. is there something you need to tell me.?"

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