Impurity [Espresso and Madeleine fanfic]

Chapter 2, warm tears

What espresso said made Madeleine freeze, he felt as if espresso had known the terrible thoughts Madeleines been thinking and wanted to see Madeleine suffer trying to explain why he had them, Madeleine still couldn't look at espresso, he didn't want to see him, not here, not now, not ever, he wanted to be loved by espresso but he knew that would never happen,

"I-I think I need to leave.."

Madeleine stuttered out; he felt embarrassed, he knew his desire for espresso was obvious but he didn't want to confess it.

"Madeleine, are you..."

As Espresso spoke with soft words Madeleine finally had the courage to look back at espresso; to control his thoughts and just look at espresso the same way he did before, espresso had a sympathetic look spread across face, suddenly espresso gently lifted his free hand and cupped Madeleines cheek, Madeleine didn't even notice the warm tears escaping from his eyes, as they smoothly ran down his face espresso spoke again.

"Madeleine I think you should take a seat so we could talk about this."

Madeleine felt a small smile appear on his face as espresso said that, Madeleine had wanted to talk to someone about these feelings and thoughts for awhile but he didn't know who to tell.

Espresso held Madeleines hand and guided him towards 2 empty seats placed next to a coffee table. As espresso sat in one of the seats Madeleine quickly did the same, adjusting himself to feel more comfortable in the seat, he still felt nervous as he didn't even know where to start; as he was thinking about what to say espresso had spoken first

"Madeleine some people have noticed your weird behavior today, they're concerned for you, are you sick? If so you shouldn't be patrolling until you get better."

Madeleine let out a heavy sigh as he looked down at his hands

"Im not Ill but.. something has been happening, I... espresso I think I'm deeply in love with someone."

Espressos eyes widened at the words that came from Madeleines mouth. He knew Madeleine was the type to fall head over heals for someone but he didn't know it would be this bad.

"Espresso, have you ever been so deeply in love, thinking about a person for hours on end; wanting to spend all your time with them wanting to lay with them and go into every position with them."

Espresso didn't know how to answer that question, he wouldn't have thought Madeleine was the type to think like that but he supposed he had felt that way before, not as deeply as Madeleine had fallen.

"I suppose so, I have felt that way but never mildly."

An uncomfortable silence filled the room, Madeleine wasn't quick to ask and he didn't want to ask but curiosity had gotten the better of him

"Who was it.?"

Espresso felt a small hint of blush hit his face yet he had remained his bland expression

"Im sure you don't know him that well.. the schools history teacher eclair ."

Madeleine felt his heart shatter with those words yet he refused to let himself start to cry again,

"What about you Madeleine. Who are you admiring."

Madeleine wouldn't have dared to tell espresso the truth, he knew It would be impossible for espresso to ever love him so why get his hopes up, Madeleine had thought for a minute before speaking

"I er.. you know that person with the mismatch eyes and the beast claw, Red velvet that's who."

Espresso immediately recognized the description and name, he had spoken to that person before, their conversations were delightful as although red velvet had a intimidating appearance he was kind to his hounds and people who didn't attack him or insult him.

"Red velvet? I haven't seen him around in some time, you two would make a nice pairing."

Madeleines heart was withered away at this point, he hated lying to people especially people he really cared for but he should wait for another opportunity to tell espresso, maybe then espresso will share the feelings

But for now it's better to lie

Madeleine stood up and with a plastered on smile he said he should be going now, before he left he looked at the clock

5:49

Maybe taking the day off tomorrow wouldn't be so bad, a lot of people thinks he's sick anyway.

He waved to espresso and walked out of the house as espresso had shut the door behind Madeleine, Madeleine felt the tears come back, burning, he knows espresso doesn't feel the same about him but why does he still want to be with espresso so badly

(GUYS I SWEAR THEYLL END UP FUCKING AT THE END 😪😪😪😪)

(Btw sorry for not updating, I had no idea how I wanted this chapter to go-)

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