"Look if this is about what happend at the p...."
"Shut the fuck up and sit down." Never in my life have a heard Ronnie voice so stern and anger. It scared me.
"I want you to tell why Danny called me saying Ben was going to press chargers aganist Ryan." I stood there lost for words. My eyes wandered over until I saw Ryan. I ran over to him smacking him in the face. I felt arms grab me before I could do any more damage.
I turned around to see Jacky holding me back.
"Why don't you ask that prick. His the one who walked in thinking he could just punch people!" I yelled I yanked my arms away from Jacky and dried my eyes.
"Shut up Castro! I'm tired of fighting for someone who treats me like crap" He yelled and spat at me.
My heart was racing a mile a minute and I just wanted to punch him senseless.
"What the fuck are you talking about? Who are you fighting for me with, Ben?" I hated the horrible feeling I got in my stomach when I fought with someone.
"You Castro! It's always been you. You think Ben would have come visit you in the hospital? You think he would have sat up with you till 2 holding your hair while your threw up everything but the sun? It's you, I loved you"
The room was silent and I sobbed as Ryan quickly wipped away a few tears. I knew he hated crying.
I couldn't find my voice and stating at all the hurt Ryan hide in his eyes made me want to throw up.
"Just forget it Cas. Just go back to pretending I was never there for you."
He walked out of the house slamming the door. I turned to Ronnie who was speechless.
"I'm sorry Ronnie. I let you down like I always do. I'm a fuck up." I walked up stairs and got out my duffle bag. I started to toss in every clothes iteam I could find. I stopped packing when I heard my phone buzz.
BenB: I had an amazing night. Minus the broken nose.
Me: lol yea I know me to. Hang out again?
BenB: of course.
Me: Alright love ya
BenB: love?
Cas: like a friend. you know?
BenB: oh of course bye.
I felt like an ass hole for yelling at Ryan but, did he really have to ruin a perfect moment with Ben out of jealousy. Ryan can be a total prick sometimes. I swear. I jumped in the shower and stood in there until little wrinkles appeared on my finger tips. I changed into some pajamas and laid down. I grabbed my iPod and put in my head phones. I skimmed through my playlist till I landed on Shadow Moses by Bring Me The Horizon . I turned it up full volume and closed my eyes. I listened to the lyrics and took in every word Oli's sweet voice sang. Tomorrow I was going to leave. Again.
Can you tell from the look in our eyes
(we're going nowhere)
We live our lives and we're ready to die
(we're going nowhere)
[repeat x2]
I thought I'd burn you
And cover the tracks
You'll have to take this with your coat in hand
I thought I'd bury you
One stick and never gone
I thought I'd cut you loose
Sever the feeling
Shift through the cracks
That you clench in my shirt
I thought I'd bury you
One stick and never gone
Can you tell from the look in our eyes
(we're going nowhere)
We live our lives and we're ready to die
(we're going nowhere)
You can run but you'll never escape
(over and over again)
Will we ever see the end
(we're going nowhere)
This is sempiternal
Will we ever see the end
This is sempiternal
Over and over again and again
Run from the dead you said
Secrets completely till the took to the grave
Signal the siren rally the troops
Lady's and gentlemen its the moment of truth
Can you tell from the look in our eyes
(we're going nowhere)
We live our lives and we're ready to die
(we're going nowhere)
You can run but you'll never escape
(over and over again)
Will we ever see the end
(we're going nowhere)
This is sempiternal
Will we ever see the end
This is sempiternal
Over and over again and again
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These Flashing Lights(Re-Writing)
FanfictionNo one likes a follower. That's just what Castro is. A follower. Born in the spotlight of her brother Ronnie Radke's talent she has always been the outcast. Until a situation leads her to realize what a mess she is. But it's not her fault, living wi...
