My Brother's Lips(18+) Completed

In Which She Accepts and Let Go

Part 1

A hot chocolate in hand, sitting down in the coffee creme carpeted floor, a thick light blue blanket around me and sitting infront of the fire place admiring the dancing flames I couldn't help but reminisce about what has happened in the month that has passed.

And well, the nightmares that haunted my dreams couldn't go away, going to the therapist wasn't working, tonight the nightmare was worse and it always started the same...

Waking up to a single yet strong luminiscent lightbulb with a blurry vision and the feeling of those hands in my body, hands that couldn't wait to punch and slash my skin the moment it....

Stop! Angela, don't start... I scold myself mentally trying to find a happy place.

Today at 9:00 am the trail to sentence Jared to prison was coming to an end, and I was needed in court. I was the last puzzle piece to this twisted case, I glance at the clock in the peached colored wall and breathe out softly, it was 2:17am... great.

"Mind if I join?..."

Tensing and looking up where that voice came from I look to my right, and there he was, William, sitting down besides me with his own hot chocolate... I close my eyes and count to five, trying to calm my frantic heart as well as my fear clouded mind.

It's ok... everything is allright, I chanted as I open my eyes again, his own fixated in the fireplace, the mix of mozzy gray green with orange hues made his eyes pop up and look ethereal.

"I heard you scream a while back..."

He quickly look at me but I glance away, looking down at my cup like it was the most interesting thing in the world.

I didn't want to admit it but I nod, a sense of sadness enveloping me. Not wanting to look up at him because I knew that I'd look way vulnerable... something I've avoided the moment I was checked out of the hospital.

His gentle touch in my chin made me jump again but him forcing me to look at him with that soft gesture made my eyes spill with tears that became quite familiar the moment my body accepted defeat.

"I- I'm trying to be strong-..."

I try to explain but the shocks of pain and sniffles that my body emmited were strong. His other hand left his cup of chocolate aside and grabbed mine, the hand in my chin reached my cheek and began carresing it as his hand left my cup besides his and shuffles closer his other hand reaching my other cheek and caressing both.

"Look at me, Angela and look at me well... I'll never let anything or anyone hurt you anymore and you can hate me if you want but I am so sorry if I hurt you... I was an asshole and a prick and I deserve the way you ignore me and don't even look my way but remember that the one who found you and saved you was this damned soul..."

I couldn't help but lean into him as I cried my heart out... again to him. I didn't care about deja vu... his words hit home as I remembered how cruel and unwelcoming I was with him.

I've seen the snippets of changes in him, how he's become a little more reachable, more gentle, how he talks to his father and makes conversation with my mother. He was changing... some of the time his cocky attitude showed but it was more to tease and find a semblace of a smile on my lips.
For God's sake the asshole, was the one who saved me...

I left a soft puff of breath out and close my eyes... the aftermath of crying leaving me way to tired to even speak... I guess I should just accept my fate.

Seconds later I feel myself being lifted from the floor as I was weightless, it didn't really register since the warmth I was pressed up made me relax even further into slumber... oh, it's amazing how I slowly fell into dreamland and how our hot cups of chocolate were forgotten in the living room... he must have extinguish the fire before he got me in his arms...