Who would've thought I'd write about you?
It's been a while since I've chosen words to describe you
It's probably because we haven't seen each other anymore
That I've lost all my feelings for you
It's probably because we haven't seen each other anymore
That I've realized you never felt anything for me
Did you treat every moment we had together with the same amount
Of intimacy and fervor as I did?
Did you see my eyes light up whenever I came across you -
Did you take that as a sign that I loved you?
You in that uniform you wear so piously
With that bag slung on your right shoulder.
Your silhouette - one I delightfully wrapped my arms around
Everyday back then, I thought of you.
Did you, for once, think of me?
When our bodies lay weightless and infinite on that gravel sidewalk
When you held my hand as you slept beside me
And I breathed my name on your neck like a promise
Did you know I wanted so badly to kiss you
When you told me you loved me
Before I realized you didn't mean it?
I lived in hope that, at least once in your life, you would
Did you never treat every action as illicitly and criminal as I did?
Every hand-held moment, every bite of the lip
Every summer getaway, when we locked eyes under duvet
And sat around the closed outdoor restaurant with my pinky on your thigh
Did you not see it, ever?
How could you have missed it?
When we listened to that song in August and you told me it was your favorite
I couldn't ever play it again without thinking of you
To this day, every lyric bears your name
But these days, I no longer miss you.
It's strange that I did every day when I would see you
In every afternoon you'd go away too quickly,
I'd wonder why my chest seemed like it was swallowing itself,
Wanting you back
But who am I to say that we were ever together?
When it was only a matter of time
And it couldn't have come to me any clearer -
You were never really mine.
Read more poems like this in my poetry collection "If I Can See You When I Pass Away." You can order it via https://aidanbernales.carrd.co or through my social media accounts: aidanreuel on IG and Facebook.
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poems inspired by folklore
Poetrythis is a collection of poems i made inspired by the tracks on folklore. i posted all of these on my poetry Instagram page @poemsbyaids. you can check it out there!
