Bound Together

Chapter 4

A/N: There might be typographical errors ahead, so sorry in advance.
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Riki's POV

"Well, wala kang choice. Yun lang yung paraan eh, kailangan natin kausapin yung king tapos gagawa siya ng certificate ng divorce tapos pe-permahan niyong dalawa." Kuya Heeseung continued explaining.

I just sighed, it seems kind of easy.

"Ahh medyo madali lang naman pala." I nodded at what Kuya Jake said.

"Nope, kailangan niyo pang i-explain sakanya kung bakit." I released a heavy sigh as Kuya Sunghoon pointed it out. Yes, i also call him kuya, i don't know i just feel like it.

"Bagsak agad kayo dun eh, ngayon palang parang gusto niyo nang kasal ka-" Jungwon didn't have time to finish as a pillow hit his face, hard.

We all laughed as he stumbled back, that made him fall to the ground. Sunoo was laughing the hardest, he was the one who threw it after all.

I also laughed so hard, but because i found him funny while laughing. It was like i was infected with his happiness.

As i realized that my smile immediately dropped and i looked away from him. Looking back at Jungwon who glared so hard at Sunoo who just found him amusing.

WARNING:

mentions of:
- heartbreaks
- sudden breakdown
- triggered memories

No way, hindi ako nasisiyahan dahil masaya siya. Tangena, ano yun? Nababaliw na ba ako?

Kakakilala ko lang sakanya ang landi mo na. Wag kang ganyan Riki, masasaktan ka nanaman.

Maiiwan ka nanaman mag isa.

Iiyak ka nanaman.

Sisirain mo nanaman buhay mo, magagalit si Kuya Jake.

Nag promise ka na sakanya, okay ka na.

I was stopped at my train of thoughts as Kuya Jake, who was beside me, held my hand worriedly.

"Riks? Ayos ka lang ba? Kanina pa kita tinatawag pero ang lalim ng iniisip mo, inaantok ka na siguro noh? Tulog na tayo?"

"Jake, let him breathe first." Jay interrupted Kuya Jake's questioning by putting a hand on his shoulder and pulled him a bit away from me.

"Sorry, Riks, ano ayos ka lang ba?"

"Kuya..."

Tangina, Cael, bakit ka nanaman ganyan? Kumalma ka nga.

I tried to stop my thoughts, but my eyes worked faster.

Kuya Jake immediately hugged me and my tears started breaking out. I can't help but remember everything, everything.

Jay looked like he got the message as he sighed and got up, he talked to the other four who looked confused at my sudden outburst.

But i also saw that they were worried if they did something i didn't like that caused me to go full sobbing at Kuya Jake's arms.

"Don't worry, hindi niyo kasalanan. He just..." Jay hesitated saying and looked over at us first. Kuya Jake wasn't looking at him and i can see he doesn't have any plans on turning his head to him.

And i was busy burying my head to Kuya Jake's neck and shoulder, to his chest even. I know i look like a child, i even feel like one. But who cares, i need it. I need this.

Jay released a sigh first, "He got triggered about something, kahit ako hindi ko alam kung bakit. Hopefully, magiging okay na siya bukas, alam na ni Jake ang gagawin sakanya."

That seemed enough to make them sigh in relief but i still saw Sunoo looking worried, but also looked like he didn't have any other choice.

As they walked towards the door and slowly got out, i can see Sunoo leaving lastly and looked at me for a good minute first before giving me a small smile.

A smile that gave me comfort for just a little, not as comforting as Kuya Jake's hugs, but it still gave me that light and warm feeling.

I was still sobbing when Kuya Jake carried me to our room and layed me down the bed. I'm not a clingy person, i don't even like physical touch.

But i found myself clinging to kuya Jake who tried to stand up and get me water or whatever.

"N-no, kuya, dito ka lang. Wag mo din akong iwan katulad nila. Wag, kuya, ikaw lang at si Jay ang meron ako. P-please..."

"Of course, baby. Hindi kita iiwan katulad nila, andito si Kuya Jake at Jay, okay?"

He settled himself and layed beside me, i instantly attached my whole body to him. It was like how a child would cling to their mother when they found out something devastating.

When they experienced a heartbreak, they would run to their mothers and bawl in their arms.

But i didn't have that, i never experienced that. Not like i was craving for it.

Because now, Kuya Jake is doing that for me, and Jay making sure i was tucked alright and put a glass of water on the nightstand.

They were enough, them.

They were the only ones i needed.