smoke and mirrors

7

"I just want to be alone."

Jaehyun looks out at the shoreline. The sun aligns perfectly with the sea as it starts to set. The moment felt magical.

Jaehyun sides with Johnny when the older one doesn't say anything. Taking in a deep breath, he gives the American a half smile.

"Why not confront me? Why leave?" Johnny asked. He was determined to figure out what happened. He knows what was said, but why the drastic reaction?

Jaehyun shakes his head. "You won't stop will you?" He turns his whole body to face the American. "Besides, why will I give you an answer when you are still engaged to that woman?"

The distaste for jaehyun right now was ineluctable. Johnny tries to restrain himself from reaching the point of being livid, however, all he can do is be slow to speak. "Listen, you owe me at least that."

Jaehyun couldn't believe this guy. Ow him? Does he not remember what he did first? Jaehyun turns away from Johnny. "You owe me a reason for why you cheated on me. You owe me an explanation for why you chose her over me when I came back."

Johnny smacks his teeth. "I didn't mean to hurt you...."

"Bullshit. I think it's funny that you gave me those TV show answers. I want the truth. Did I say...."

Johnny grabs Jaehyun's face. "The situation didn't go like that. Both times were blurry and messy." Johnny rubs Jaehyun's face. "I never wanted you to know this side of me existed. I wanted to be nothing but perfect for you."

This is hurting Jaehyun too much. He wants to grab Johnny, kiss him, and maybe even do the devil's tango. However looking into those loving orbs, all he feels is betrayal. "What? You thought you wanted a doll?" Jaehyun had to Avert his eyes before he got lost in the American's orbs forever, "well I guess you were. You are Annabelle."

When he left for a year, Johnny didn't come looking for him. Besides, he could have at least tried. He would have found him.

"So she is your pick?" Jaehyun questions. "If I was to pass away tomorrow would she be your next lover?"

Johnny grabs Jaehyun from behind. "Don't say that." Johnny's hands slid more onto Jaehyun's waist. "I'm sorry."

Why do those words hurt to hear? The truth is that he wanted to turn around and give himself to Johnny. He wanted to get the needle and stitch the torn fabric back together, but he couldn't because he refused.

Johnny eventually leaves, and jaehyun takes the moment. He is not sure who he is yet, but he knows what he wants.

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"It's not like that!"

"You are choosing someone who walked out on you. In your time of need." Joey grabs Johnny's collar. Her eyes wide with greed, "You are going to leave me for him."

"Joey me..."

"Johnny, I'm pregnant!"

The world stops. Johnny was in a pickle. "Oh my God!" His voice gets caught in his throat. "When..."

"I was going to tell you on our wedding day. But it looks like that day will never come." The woman couldn't stop hyperventilating. It feels like her whole life is burning to ashes. Why did she have to fall for this man?

Johnny drops to his knees, mouth agape. Even when he was in a tough situation he still smiled. He has a baby.

Joey, She was pregnant and scared. No wonder she was crying so hard. She didn't want to be abandoned. Johnny can relate to being abandoned, he felt that a year ago.

"If you are going to leave me let me know right now so I know what to do." Those salty drops smack the ground so hard. "I love you, Johnny, I love more than life itself."

Johnny couldn't hug the woman. In the middle of the living room filled with cries, Johnny couldn't let her go. He can't say that he doesn't have feelings for her. He won't lie because it's not right.

Just then his two worlds collide. Jaehyun walks in. With a horrified expression, he says, "She's pregnant? That means you won't leave her. Honestly, I would never ask you to."

Johnny looks in between Joey and jaehyun. Wow, this reminds him of a certain situation back in high school. Cough cough taeyong and ten

The American flops down on the couch. "I don't know what to do. If I choose you then I won't have a child. But if I choose you then I will lose..."

"Johnny, I'm not asking you to choose. I will." Jaehyun rips the ring off of his finger. "I can never ask you to choose between me or your child."

"Jae..."

The Korean male frowns. "I'm sorry, I care too much about children to stand in the way." Tears trickle down Jaehyun's face.

With the back of his hand, he taps the tears away, "with that being said. I will move out."

Just like that, Jaehyun packs up and leaves. Johnny tries to stop him, he begs and pleads but it is no good. Jaehyun made up his mind. He wants that child to be happy.

Jaehyun closed his car door. He wanted to stay, he wanted to work everything out. He loved that bastard. Honestly, he never wanted to say goodbye because this one means forever.

Jaehyun pulls out, he turns up his radio trying to drown out his sorrows. It would work if he wasn't blasting 'I will never love again.'

Jaehyun kept wiping his eyes, focusing was almost obsolete. But he manages to get to the main light. When it turned green he started to drive the normal speed.

It happened in a blink of an eye. The coast was clear, but maybe it wasn't as clear as he thought.
Without intention of stopping another car smashes right into his door. His car does three spins, 360 before inevitably hitting a pole.

People stopped, and he could hear yelling and crying. Soon everything went black.

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Yuta was sitting on his couch. He crossed one leg over the other. He couldn't stop staring at his son. Hira was jumping and playing with a million balloons.

The Japanese felt a feeling in the pit of his stomach. "Hira, where did all of these balloons come from?"

"Uncle Jae. He blew them up and told me to bother you." The little boy replied. Hira tries to grab all of the balloons, "here..."

Yuta was about to grab it but his phone lit up. He grabs his phone as he grabs one balloon.

"What's up taeyong... WHAT!"

Hira jumps. "Mommy what's..."

Yuta hangs up the phone. He tries to not freak out. "Uh ..Honey do you wanna go say hi to papa sicheng?"

Hira didn't know what was going on so he said yes. Yuta packed a little bit of snacks and was on their way.

Jaehyun was in an accident, this is so crazy. Yuta quickly dropped his son off. After giving him a quick kiss on the cheek and a hug, Yuta was off like a rocket towards the hospital.

"Taeyong what happened?" Running in the cold white place, Yuta kept questioning taeyong. "Where's Johnny, Where's....."

"Calm down yuta." Taeyong pushes Yuta in a chair. He will pull through. We have to be strong."

The doctor steps out to see the males. "I'm so sorry,"