smoke and mirrors

19

"Why didn't you listen to me? Johnny, you are a prime suspect so why are you bringing jaehyun down too?"

Johnny lit the match in his hand. In the black-painted room, Johnny places the flame on an oil lamp. "Am I?" He questions knowing damn well he technically is. "Look taeyong I am protecting us both. You see when I came home three nights ago, jaehyun clothes were covered in blood."

"Liar." Taeyong looked appalled. These claims were completely and utterly fallacious. "Johnny don't be ridiculous."

Johnny didn't speak he slid the picture to taeyong. Simply saying it was true isn't enough so he showed him what he needed to see. "Am I?"

Taeyong looks like the life was drained out of him. "What are you trying to do such?"

"That's simple, stay out of my relationship and no one gets hurt." Johnny taps his finger on the ombre desk. In a robot tone, he speaks, "Do you understand taeyong?"

The avatar's ambiguity expands with fear. "Johnny?" At a loss for words, taeyong stands. "T..." he takes a deep breath. "Johnny this isn't right. But to Jae, I will not poke the bear."

With that taeyong silences himself and Johnny asserts his dominance by staring. "Good, that's exactly what I want."

Johnny smiles like a maniac. Soon the meeting ended and Johnny managed to go home without further interruptions.

When he steps into his home the smell of delicious smoked turkey and spicy kimchi fills his nostrils. He knows who is to blame for the low rumbling of his half-empty stomach. Johnny silently steps into the kitchen to see jaehyun plating everything.

He walks up behind jaehyun and wraps his arms around his waist. "Everything smells lovely." With his chin on jaehyun shoulder, with his right hand, he moves some hair behind Jaehyun's ear.

"Johnny I'm happy you think it smells good. The smell is kinda making me nauseous." Jaehyun looks back his face so close to Johnny's. He couldn't help but turn around just as fast as he looked back.

"I want a kiss before I eat you..... the food before I eat your food." Johnny slips up kinda of on purpose just to throw jaehyun off balance.

"Here, take your plate." Jaehyun smacks to porcelain plate of food to Johnny's chest.

They both sat down at the dinner table, neither one could make conversation; it only took a few seconds of chewing before the awkwardness settled.

Johnny who was enjoying his fresh kimchi and turkey finds the air too hard to handle. He couldn't help but start laughing.

Jaehyun looks to him, "What's so funny?"

"We are," Johnny says while he scrapes the plate. "We are funny because of how awkward we are. Also, there's another big ass trial coming up and all we are doing is this?"

Jaehyun didn't know if he should laugh or be hurt. He didn't want to keep entertaining someone as selfish and manipulative as Johnny. "Shut up. You're being extra."

"Am I tho? I miss you." Johnny pouts. "I miss everything about you. Your laugh, your smile.."

"Really what is your favorite thing about me?" Jaehyun asks. He unconsciously smiles while swooping another big spoon of kimchi in his mouth.

"Everything," Johnny answers simply. "You are my favorite."

Jaehyun chokes. He was so caught off guard that he couldn't see the water right in front of his watering eyes. "Shit Johnny," almost like a miracle Jaehyun grabs the water and chugs it down. "Thanks for liking so much."

"I don't like you, I love you." Johnny reaches his hand to touch Jaehyun. "Do you love me back?"

What is this feeling that the brunette couldn't help but feel? His cheeks didn't turn red but there was a pounding in his heart.

"I never stopped loving you, but things are so different now." Trying to avoid the conversation he moves away from the table. His appetite had depleted the moment Johnny said he loved him.

Jaehyun wraps the plate and walks away. This was good, Johnny loves him so much, but what is keeping away from giving himself away to the American?

Does Johnny want him or is it all just for show?

Not wanting to think anymore jaehyun climbs into bed. He crosses one leg over the other while looking ahead at the cracked door.

This is what he has unfortunately grown used to in his time with Johnny, it was always him and silence. What is different no...

"I cleaned up the kitchen so you don't have to get up early to clean it." Johnny walks over to the bed. "Can I sleep with you tonight or will I have to sleep on the couch."

Jaehyun let out unrecognizable sounds. His snicker sounded kinda like a snort. "You can sleep next to me." Jaehyun scoots over.

Johnny slides next to him after getting comfortable and pulls jaehyun down so his head can rest easily on his chest. He grabs Jaehyun's hands. While making their fingers dance he says, "You know a few nights ago when you had slept with me you said you love me. Do you love me when you aren't asleep or is it just me who still have these feelings?"

Jaehyun couldn't respond. He digs his nails deep into Johnny's packs. "I don't know. I'm a little scared. What if I fuck up this time?"

Johnny lays a kiss on Jaehyun's forehead. "How about when one of us fuck up again, then the other one calls us out on our shit and we move passed it together?"

Jaehyun sits up. "I'm trying to be nice to you. But you're making me get grouchy. You know I love you, Johnny, please stop asking the same thing."

The American grabs the porcelain hands again. "I need to know. You know you drive me insane." Johnny pulls Jaehyun on top of him. "I need to know before I make my next move."

Jaehyun's heart starts to beat irregularly. His mouth began to water like he was hungry. "I will let you know later. For right now I need to sleep."