"Why did you do it, Lana?" Asks Julia. What I really wanted to say is "I deserve it, Everyone hates me. Even you hate me! You just get paid to help me so you pretend. That's what this life is, pretending." Instead I simply said "I don't know". Who truly knows why they do anything. Maybe everyone does. Except for me.
Lana Madden. 15 years old. If you're still here i'm surprised. No one actually enjoys being with me. I don't think anyone enjoys really being with anyone. Communication is fake now days. Everyone is using communication on their phones now. But to me, I never use it. I get anxiety. Seeing these blonde, skinny, beautiful girls makes me starve. Literally. I've tried all my life to look like those girls.
Ice cubes, tape, 6 years of therapy, and blades won't help it all. It actually feels like nothing will. And don't me get my wrong I love my therapist and she gives great advice but it's not for me. Nothing is for me. This world is just not for me. I want to find a place I belong in. A place where my mother loves me, I look perfect, I don't have scars on my body, and I can just use tape on paper.
I don't have many friends. Actually. I don't have any. After my friends figured out I was "suicidal" they ditched me. I didn't tell anyone I was suicidal. I didn't even know I was suicidal. But I guess after a "Overdose" attempt and the whole school finds out, you do get talked about. Maybe they thought I died so that's why they stopped becoming friends with me... No. That sounds to good. I wonder what it is like to be a normal person again. I mean after all i'm always masked up.
And this is only the beginning.
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Random"Lights, Camera, Pretend to be happy" 15 year old Lana has been through it all her life. Therapy and institutions won't do it. As she struggles with Self harm, Depression, and Anxiety, she has to figure out how to make herself joyful. What made Lan...
