Silent Cry | Minsung

02💫

How your heart sobs when you're alone

After turning off the lights in your quiet room

You, who used to smile brightly, are slowly dying

In this empty space, with nobody inside of it

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Minho laid on the floor of his shower. He just sat as the cold water fell onto him. He looked at his arms that were filled with fresh cuts. 

Why did I do that? Now my parents are going to be mad at me. Again. 

Well, it's what you deserve. You shouldn't have thoughts about Jisung like that.

He slammed his head against the bathroom wall, trying to drown out the voice. He was so tired of hearing those awful things. 

He turned off the shower and grabbed his towel. The cuts on his arms started bleeding again. He sighed as he tried to stop the bleeding with his towel. He grabbed the bandages that were sitting on the counter and did his best to wrap his arms. 

Once he finished that, he got ready for bed. He laid on his bed but didn't want to go to bed. He knew that the demon in his head would take over his dreams, and he didn't want to wake up from nightmares again. So, he just stared at the ceiling, thinking.

He had finally accepted that he liked Jisung, but that didn't stop the voice in his head from yelling at him for it. 

He had come out to his parents a few months ago. He told them he was gay. They didn't like that very much. In fact, they hated their son. They would never hit him or physically abuse him, but they made it very clear to him that they didn't love him because of his sexuality. He was lucky they didn't kick him out of the house. But they did make his life a living hell at home. Minho never argued against them. he just took their verbal abuse quietly and cried in his room when they were gone.

As he laid there, his thoughts went back to Jisung. 

What if he is gay? What if he likes me? We could become a couple and go on dates and stuff. He got excited at the thought of someone loving and caring for him. But those thoughts were quickly shut down. 

You really think that Jisung would like someone like you? Look at you. You are a nobody. 

Minho softly started crying. He slowly drifted off to sleep with the thought that Jisung would never like him the same way he did. 

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Hope you have a wonderful day!

-Rae💜