𝓝𝔂𝔁 - 𝓵𝓸𝓸𝓴𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓯𝓸𝓻 𝓪 𝓹𝓵𝓪𝓬𝓮 𝓲𝓷 𝓵𝓲𝓯𝓮

Collapse of trust

I felt consciousness return to my body. I felt like leaving the carousel, everything was spinning. My eyelids were so heavy I couldn't open them. I smelled burnt and alcohol. Somewhere in the back of my head, I heard a conversation. After struggling with my body for a while, I opened my eyes. The first thing I noticed was that I was in a hut and tied to a chair, I reached into my pocket but my wand was not there. Not wanting to draw attention to myself, I quietly began to untie the rope. Unfortunately, the more I tried to break free, the more it tightened. At one point, it hurt so much that I hissed in pain. There was a silence and then one of the witches approached me.
- Who's awake here? Our dear Sleeping Beauty. She laughed and put her hand towards me and I spat on her.
- Ooo look kid bites.
She came closer and looked into my eyes. - I heard so much about you, my little one.
She sat on my lap and I started to struggle.
- Let me out, bitch!
I screamed.
- Awww you don't even know what I want to do with you right now sunshine. She pulled out her wand and pointed it at me. At this point, Bellatrix entered the room and struck the witch who fell off my lap, cursing under her breath. Aurelia, you know who she is and you are not allowed to touch her, understood?!
The other only raised her head, covering her bleeding nose.
- Of course..
She hissed and left, still looking at me.
Bellarix sighed and stumbled over to me. I smelled alcohol from her.
-So what are you doing here, baby?
She asked.
- I have a better question, what are you doing here?
Ha! Excuse me?! Its my hut.
- What kind of initiation or whatever, is this some kind of cult? Why am I tied up here to this chair?
She walked closer and kissed me.
I pushed her away because she smelled like burned skin and alcohol.
- Dont you dare push me away, I just saved you from Aurelia!
She chuckled.
- You are drunk... And I want to be realeased from here now !
I exclaimed
- And what even If I am drunk? I am here, you are here and you are only mine now. I know you want me.
She came even closer.
- Maybe I do... But never like this...
You disgust me right now, Bellatrix Druella Black!
I cried...
- You are so pethetic, you are staying here as long as I want you to! You belong to me! And how dare you call me by my full name?!
She tightened the ropes with her spells.
I started to choke, not being able to breath.
- Please, I know it is not you...
I trusted you...
I broke down.
- You are so hot when you are a mess for me, pet.
My eyes widen.
- What?! NO! I thought...
I said crying
- What?! You thought I would fell in love with you and run away to be together?
You are naive... I only need you for my own satisfaction, for you to please me and to use you for my own good.
You fell into my trap, darling. I have no feelings for you, but you are mine and you are going to join me wether you want it or not.
My eyes glazed over, I tried to hold back crying, it felt as if something inside was tearing me to pieces. I wanted to believe it was just another nightmare. I tried to justify the situation by the fact that she was drunk, but in my heart I felt that she was saying what she was thinking.
I was sitting there tied to the old chair, feeling a lump growing in my throat. Bellatrix snorted at me, kicked the chair in which I was sitting, and untied me. With all my strength I started to run away. Under normal circumstances, I wouldn't have had a chance, but now she was drunk and her movements were slow. I managed to run out of the room but in this way I fell into a circle of other witches. One of them grabbed my hoodie and pulled me to her, grabbing my throat.
-And where are you going little Nyx? Are you leaving us already? No I don't think so honey...
I started to fight with her but I couldn't get out of her grip. I turned my head to see who she was.
- Hi little...
She giggled and waved her hand.
- Like what you see? Just don't fall in love with me like you did with Madam Lestrange...
She mocked me while still teasing me.
- Fuck off!!! All of you!
I screamed.
- Oh yea we can fuck, but later honey later...
I had no idea what they wanted from me.
I asked but they didn't answear.
After what seemed like and hour Bellatrix joined the circle of witches surrounding me. She nodded at the witch who was holding me. She was a tall woman with white hair and bloodshot eyes. She dragged me to Bellatrix and she grabbed my hand and rolled up my sleeve. I looked at her one more time, waiting to find pity or any kind of emotional hoard. All I could see in her eyes was rage, greed and lust. I turned my head and pressed tighter against the woman who was holding me, hoping she would wobble under the pressure of my weight, I looked into her eyes. Her look was as blank as Bella's. She looked down on me and said:
- Oh are you trying to hug me? Don't worry it's not that painfull. I heard you are strong, so take it like a big girl you are.
Pissed off with all my strength, I hit her in the stomach with my elbow. She did not let go and only cursed under her breath.
- Bellatrix, hurry up because our little snake is spitting venom.
All the witches laughed. At that moment, I felt a terrible pain piercing my whole body. It felt as if someone had stuck a million blades into my hand and was inserting them deeper and deeper.
I didn't squeal or yell, just gritted my teeth and muscles, one tear fell down my cheek. I didn't know what hurt me more. Physical pain or the fact that the person I once relied on did such a thing to me.
- I trusted you!
I turned to my teacher.
She called me naive again. The woman who was holding me released me and I fell to the ground. The first thing I looked at was my hand. There was a sign on it that I had already seen at Bellatrix and the girl I saw through the window. I was so mad that I went for a run that night.
After a while, I heard applause.
- She didn't even scream. You were right Bella, she's strong.
One of the witches said.
Did you doubt even one word I said, Isabella?
The witch shook her head.
I didn't know exactly what was going on, I was still sitting half awake on the floor as Bellatrix leaned over me.
- Can we start having fun?
One of the red-haired witches asked.
- Of course my dear.
Apparently they noticed that I had no clue what this is about. It was explained to me that after the ritual of admission to the group, the witches who completed the ritual had power over the newly admitted person all night long.
Simply saying, they could do what they wanted to me. Of course, I did not agree, but my opinion did not matter. I was struck by the imperio spell, after which I lost control of my own body and consciousness. I felt closed in my body, unable to control it, but only able to observe what was happening around me. I was horrified.
- Can I take care of her, Mrs. Lestrange? -Come on over.
She exclaimed.
A young witch came up to me and said. -You're cute, you know? It's a pity you won't answer me anything ...
She grabbed my neck and pulled me to her. My breathing quickened, I wanted so much to break free and run away ... -Do you like me, Nyx?
She started playing with my hair.
The other witches backed away with fear in their eyes. Bellatrix tensed up and grasped her wand tightly as she threw the Crucio spell at the red haired witch.
She fell to the ground, screaming and writhing in pain.
- You brat! You know very well that Nyx belongs only to me! Get out of here and never let me catch you even thinking about her or you'll lose all your limbs!
In a fury, Bellatrix chased everyone out of the hut.
- I will take care of her, dear sisters. In a couple of nights a girl who represents the Chinese character will join us.
I didn't understand anything what Bellatrix was talking about, all I could hear was gibberish. When only me and her were left in the hut, she took me in her arms and carried me to her room.
- It was all supposed to be different. It is your fault!
She yelled at me.
I felt that she was slightly sobering.
- No matter how much I want it, I won't do it to you now. Appreciate it Nyx!
She was screaming again and I felt her voice crack. She pulled a thick black dress out of the closet and put it on me. She saw fear in my eyes, she came closer and stroked my head, giving me a kiss on the forehead.
- We'll talk tomorrow, and now you are to sleep understood ?!
She remembered that I couldn't speak, so she just nodded and lay down next to me, pulling the covers that smelled of incense over me and herself.
I was sure that I would not fall asleep, but exhausted by all my emotions, and with this whole situation, I closed my eyes and opened them only when I felt the sun's rays penetrate through the small window. I abruptly got out of bed and realized that I was alone in the room. I nervously searched for my wand. I couldn't find her anywhere. I gently grabbed the handle and the door creaked open. The first thing I saw behind the door was Bellatrix standing in it.
- Where do you think you're going? We have to talk.
I interupted her
- I don't want to talk to you! You've lost my trust! You are crazy, I don't want to have anything to do with you and I don't want to see you again!
I screamed out.
- Well, if you've already blown it all out, now let me say it. I know you have tons of questions so don't make it difficult for both of us. I can see where your eyes go, yes doors and windows are closed.
I snorted and rolled my eyes at her.
I sat down and tried to listen to her calmly, but it was hard. I can understand and forgive a lot, but without my own free will, I was kidnapped and accepted into a cult that I had no idea about but what she said about us that night hurt me the most. I listened blindly to her, staring out the window behind her, thinking what I would be doing now if it hadn't been for all the fuss. First, she explained to me what the cult was all about. I have been told that this is a gathering of witches that will defend wizards and sorceresses from non-magical attacks during the war. It didn't sound that bad, but I knew I didn't know everything. I ordered her to remove the mark from my forearm, but it was impossible. I also learned what is involved in joining the cult.
- You have to promise me that you won't mention anything to my parents. Otherwise, neither you nor they will do well.
Bellatrix said warningly.
I was not able to accept all these messages personally. Too much had happened. I got up and went to the window.
- Why me?
I turned to Bella, who was staring at me perplexedly.
- Since I have decided so, I appreciate your personality and strength.
I laughed right in her face.
- You are lying! You said something completely different last night.
Bellatrix got up and came from behind to try to hug me.
- Fuck off! Never touch me again, you psycho. I made the mistake of trusting you and I will not do it a second time!
I pushed her away with all my strength. Tears were streaming down my cheek.
I wiped my face on a T-shirt.
- Okay, Nyx.
She moved to the other end of the room. - Just know that it wasn't supposed to be this way. All I'm asking you to do is not to neglect today's visitors from Durmstrang. I am not going to stand in your way.
My wand was returned to me, and at the same moment, without a word, I was teleported to my room at Hogwarts.
I looked at my watch it was 6 am. Breakfast was 2 hours later and the boys arrived at 12 o'clock. I wanted to clear my memory but I knew that later it would cause me even more problems so I went for a cold shower as a standard.
I took off 'not my' clothes and changed into black jeans, a black shirt and a Slytherin tie. I did foxy eyes makeup. Before leaving, I wrap my tattooed arm with a bandage so that no one asks me any more unnecessary questions...
- We have to get through this somehow.
I said to myself petting my owl.