Surviving The Dark - Poems And Thoughts

A Poem About Life.

This is a poem about life.
A place where we do what we can to survive.

Have you ever lost someone you loved the most?
Someone close...
Ever felt like you're lost?
Like you're a parasite living in a host...
Taking pictures that you don't even wanna post.

Life's tougher than what it feels like.
It ain't a ride on a colorful bike.
It's a bumpy ride
On a hilly road
With potholes.
They say you gotta make the most of it
Before you get old.
But how do you do that when you're
Out in the cold?

Like you don't belong,
But still trying to hold on...
To a world that's foreign.
A world where you don't fit in.
Like you're a wrong cut from a
Fabric that ain't made no more.

I've lost so much.
It's getting harder to trust.
And even harder to open up.

You pour your heart out to one
Only for those words to be thrown back to your face.
You get judged for your mistakes
And feel like you're a disgrace.
It feels like you can't get a break.
Sometimes I just wanna be alone, in space,
To forget about this living thing and
it's never-ending race.
Lately, I've been taking things slow and going at my own pace.

Been doing some self-introspection.
Felt like the inner me needed some attention
Before correction.
I'm so broken.
Some think I'm just too scared to be open.

But what if the broken pieces in me needed some connecting?
What if it's the broken world that we're living in?
And why not try to fix it?
Teach our brothers and sisters to care for one another.
To love, respect and not look down on the other.
To find the light in even the darkest times.
And forget about pride.

But it ain't like that.
We love to see our neighbor's daughter suffer,
Our enemies get hurt.
And we don't want to be seen as the only ones
That are living a life that's tougher.

We use the ones that love us.
Suck out their trust.
Live with broken hearts.
And end up not giving a fuck!

By : Lerato Yellow Motaung 💛