Tune Jo Na Kaha

35. Tera hoke rahoon

Chaahe de yaara khushiyan...Ho jaaye ab main se hum

Dil mein tu jagah de...Yeh faaslon ko karde tu kam

Maangi maangi duaa maangi hai....Bas yehi duaa maangi hai

Main din-ba-din tujhme rahun....Ho... uff tak na yaara karun

I came back at one at night sneaking quietly carefully not to wake up sushi sleeping peacefully...i have been avoiding her..but i needed some time 

As i quickly change and lay down suddenly the lights turn on bright 

Dinner nahi kiya na Susheela says sitting up giving me a death glare

Tum..tum so jao mujhe bhook nahi h 

What the hell Pramod she holds my hand and drags me to the kitchen keeping food in microwave 

Pramod itne din se dekh rahi hu raat ko 1 1 baje aate ho subha 7 baje chale jate ho ! Na breakfast khate ho na dinner! 

Bass thoda busy hu...

Vaise kal doctor ke pass jana hoga na ? 

Aaj tha wo.. 

To....kuch bola doctor ne? 

I was afraid did she knew? Also how could i forget about it !!! 

I'm healing fast...serious injuries thi nahi

Bass? Aur kuch? 

Aur kuch bhi bolna tha kya Pramod? 

Na...hi.. tu..m so jao..mai kha..lun...ga... 

Instead she comes closer to me and says jab jhoot bolna nahi aata to kyu try karte ho? 

I just look away from her 

Pramod look here ! It's been a week you are drenching yourself in work ...you don't have proper meals and you won't talk to me !! Let alone look at me too !! 

I can't  okay !! I just can't i say getting up but she twists my hand making me lean to the wall 

Stop running from me !! Tell me Pramod i want to hear ! 

You...you know..and i can't I'm sorry....

I try freeing myself from her

Please Pramod tell me !! 

What?! Tell you what huh ?! That i... i was a selfish person who couldn't care about his child? Who didn't try anything because he's too selfish to not put his love out in that position?! What do you want to hear !! 

Shh Pramod calm down she hugs me stroking my hair 

What was i supposed to do Susheela! I was being logic....i thought i didn't need to put you in danger...we could have a child anytime if you were safe...but but Susheela bohat dard ho raha h !! I feel like a murderer...i killed someone... my own child

Chotta haddi esa nahi h 

Susheela I'm a monster....I can't be a good parent..i

Shh Pramod listen to me ! You did the right thing...,Pramod you didn't kill our child...you saved him... the doctor told me...the child could be specially abled maybe even more complex as time went by...Pramod you did the right thing 

I was crying hugging her ....this whole week i was feeling a very heavy weight but her words seem to lighten it 

I'm sorry i didn't tell you...i just don't want you to- 

I know you were protecting me...but at what cost? You were driving yourself insane 

I.. i just

I know how you feel...it's odd feeling sad for someone we didn't even know...we didn't even wanted to be parents now...yet it's so painful to know we aren't parents anymore...i feel that too...that emptiness that pain...but that's what we do right? We share the pain...we overthrow it TOGETHER  

Yes.. we do i say wiping her tears as she wipes mine 

I love you chotta haddi....and i always will

Me too sushi! 

Also tum itni smart kabse ho gai? Itni mature 

Got some good advice....let's eat now 

She says setting a plate and making a bit feeding me 

I was so hungry that i gulped the food really fast and i could feel Susheela staring at me the whole time 

After my stomach became a bit full i suddenly realized and asked

Did you eat? 

Yes i did ....no compromise with food remember? ....but well that was long ago...if you want to you can feed me she says smiling 

I feed her some bites then fought for the last piece of dessert before going to bed 

Good night chotta haddi 

Good night sushi

I sleep hugging her feeling peace after long time 

I almost cried while writing this 😮‍💨

Also story's gonna end soon 🥲

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