Goddess Secret

Chapter 21 Guilt

Destinia POV

I wake up in my bed with Ambrosia laying next to me, what happened? The last thing I remember was leaving my mother's office and coming upstairs, and why does my head hurt so bad? I look over at Ambrosia and she is staring at me "What happened to me?" I feel her pushing memories into my mind I see myself attacking Alistair, a voice coming out of me that is not my own, I see Sterling and my mother begging and trying to break the trance, and I see Alistair passing out from lack of oxygen, I see Sterling picking Ambrosia up and her using my essence in her to break my trance and me hitting the floor.

"I need to find Alistair and Sterling thank you for showing me" I get off the bed and start looking for everyone. I hear voices coming from my mother's office "She is hiding something Adelaide, and we cant help her if she won't tell us. She doesn't want help, we might as well leave both of us would be a whole hell of a lot safer not being around her" Alistair says in a hushed tone. "I wanted to make this work, I have been waiting for my bonded but something isn't right and maybe it would just be better to end the bond," Sterling tells my mother. Wow, I really did a bang-up job today.

I walk into the office and everyone turns to look at me "I am fine with ending the bond" I turn and walk out of the room. I feel so dejected I know it's better, but it still hurts. I have always been the one to end relationships so this is a new type of hurt for me call it selfish pride I guess. I walk out into the backyard and start to swing and think of Isadora and when we were young.

I see her running around giggling and chasing and catching any animal she could get her hands on, trying to hit me with random items that she found, and playing games with her that she would get mad if I won. I miss her so much. I am pulled from my thoughts when I feel someone pushing me on the swing. "I am sorry you walked in when you did darlin," Sterling says. "I understand where you both are coming from, it's for the best anyway" I try to keep the hurt from my voice. "I don't know what happened today, I am ashamed and I am very sorry, Ambrosia showed me a vision of it and I couldn't believe what I did" I snap my mouth shut familiars don't have that type of power, fuck! "Did you say that Ambrosia showed you?" Sterling asked puzzled.

"It's a spell I put on her, since I keep her with me she can retain memories that I might forget and need to visit at a later time" that seems like a good story and I hope he buys it. Sterling doesn't say anything and keeps pushing me on the swing "I want to stay with you, even if Alistair leaves which I don't know if he is. I think his pride of being bested is hurt right now" Sterling laughs. "I think we could all make this work, I know you are not some damsel in distress locked in an ivory tower that needs saving, but we can help you. Just give us a chance Darlin" Sterling stops pushing me and wraps her arms around me and kisses the back of my head I lead back against him "I'll try" I whisper.