eddie and chrissy

chapter 11

Eddies pov

They took her to some lab they said shes stuck in a dream like state were shes in the upside down but nothing can hurt her

I spend every night and every day there i feal so guilty when my uncle tells me to leave but i know hes trying to help some times i stay up at night wishing she was dead i sounds so worng but id reather her dead then to be stuck there alone

She shakes some time the doctors say its cuz shes scard in there and to js try to calm her

They say she wont be the same when she wakes up that shell have and messed up leg and arm and one of her eyes will be permently blind and that thw other one is ok

I try to think shell be happy that she survived but when she wakes up it wont be the same no more shell no longer walk the same her arm my need to takes breaks time to time and her eye is blind

It all my fault i did this i let her go i told her she was safe i said not to worry she shouldve stayed put

I have scars all over arounf my wrist arounf my ankles and around my neck i have bite marks on my stomache id go thor all that all over again if it ment shed wake up she was my love and now she said goodbye

Lucas max and i have bonded on one night when i stayed the night at my trailers max came over we talked about her max said chrissy was closer to lucas then she was but the times shed talk to her she had a great time she blamed her self she told me she never rlly thot much of god but now shed pray at night begging to go back so that chrissy wouldnt have tooken her place i hugged her so hard i swear she couldnt breath but ahe did the same back we both laughed after words do to the facked we both strangled eachother

Me and lucas talked a little not much tho i see why chrissy talked to him the most tho they both had things in commen they where with the popular crowd and tried to be there best lucas would vist her offten talk to her sometimes id her him cry and apologize to her hed talk about how he shouldve found help faster or he shouldve been stronger for her he also talk about things she liked im guessing that theyed talked while the cheer leaders and bastet ball players dud partying he knew her favorit books he new she liked to color ge new that she enjoy drawing hed buy little nick nacs like coloring books a big bookx of crayons that hab every color and more he got her some of her favorit books and some poetry a stuffed animal a drawing note book and a pack of pens he gave the box to me a said to give it to her after she wakes up so that shed have things to do but i gave it back said he should give it to her

The group would come by talk to me bring me food cuz they new i wouldnt leave her side most off the time they drop me off food talk to the doctors about chrissy then leave the didnt have much to say about her just that she was nice

I hold her hand every night ever single night i never miss a day i know she knows im here i just know

It has been two weeks since it happen and i look more tierd then i ever had my hairs a mess my eyes have rlly big eye bags and i lost a cople pounds but that all i hope she wakes up if she doesnt them the doctors will have to pry me away from her

Tuesday 2:34am
Chrissyes pov

I wake up in a cold sweat im in a doctors ofice eddies right nexted to me asleep i get up and try to find tge bathroom but my leg it hurts it hurts so bad i limp to the door i find the bathroom and see my eye it its white one of them. Is white  why why is it like that no one will think im buetiful eddie omg eddie when he sees ne hell freak hell run run for the hill i walk out the retroom so some one yelling my name its eddie i see him

"eddie"
"Chrissy" he sighs out he runs up to me and picks me up i wrap my arms behind his nech and wrap my legs around hid wait he hugs me so tight
"U scard me when i woke up and u were gone... are are u ok"
"It was dark" i say in his neck i wanna cry of fear but im scard hed think less of me

He carryes me to my room i lay down be goes to tell the nurse that im awake i wait trying mot to freak while hes gone but he comes back in no time

Ge lays on top of me and nuzzles his head in my neck

"I missed you so much chrissy i..i..i thot i lost u"
"Shhhh shhhhhh"

Im here but i know hes out there i feal him all arounf me inside me i know hes alive but theres no gate and hes far to weak to open one

I dont feal the samei know he can get me again im not safe this time a this time i know wo atleast i can try to protected my self i think of telling eddie but id reather not bother him he falls asleep on top of me but befor i shut my eyes for a slipt seacond im back in the upside down i know hes inside me i can feal his thots hes coming for every one but me i try not to freak out but i shed a tear thinking of going back i.. i cant go back there the.. the things i did i i i cant live with myself if i did thos things again

LATER ON IN THE BOOK YOULLL FIND OUT BUT I WAS THINKING ABOUT COUNTINUONG THIS BOOK AND LIKE MAKING IT SO THAT IT LIKE HER AND EDDIES LIFE AFTER WORDS BUT THE UPSODW DOWN ISNT GONE YOU KNOW BUT LIEK ONLY IF U WANT UT