𝐁𝐚𝐝 𝐑𝐨𝐲𝐚𝐥𝐬, Sons Of Anarchy.

iv. suspicious minds

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iv. SUSPICIOUS MINDS

    Jesus Christ. I weaved my way through the small crowd of fake perky tits and supplement-induced erections, careful not to touch anyone. They didn't pay me any mind, though. They all seemed to be too wrapped up in their own conversations to notice the only fully dressed woman in their midst. I adjusted my purse on my shoulder and checked my phone for the umpteenth time. Today was Billy's first day of school at Charming Elementary and I'm certain I'm more nervous about it than he was.

Today was also my first day at Cara Cara, the adult entertainment studio Luanne owned. I wasn't totally sure how she acquired the business, but I knew her Old man, Otto who was serving life in prison, had gifted it to her. I don't recall ever coming here in my youth, but Jax and Opie talked about it quite a bit. Always wanting to drop in and scout the talent like it was 'Carve your own steak' night at a local steakhouse called Sizzlers. I was still deep in the closet back then, so I'd always act disgusted with their perverted curiosity while possibly being more curious than they.

I've since grown into my sexuality. I came out as bisexual when I was eighteen, though Jax and Opie had known since before my mother passed. The religious trauma I harbored growing up made it difficult for me to accept myself fully, but after being in therapy for a year at that time, I was finally brave enough to say it out loud without any shame or guilt on my shoulders. Since then, I had quite a lot of female partners, both romantically and sexually.

"Hey, the auditions are over there, sweetheart." I turned around, hearing a pitchy voice call from behind me. I came face to face with a pretty blonde with little to no clothing on, but still more than the majority of the room." And you need an appointment." She added, giving me a smile that seemed disingenuous.

"Oh, I'm not auditioning." I corrected her cordially with a tight smile. She raised her eyebrows at my response before whispering something to the girl next to her. She then approached me leisurely, strutting in her six-inch heels expertly.

She pouted at me, veining in disappointment," Awe, that's a shame." She cooed. I raised an eyebrow at her and glance behind at the two girls that had followed her to me." But it's probably for the best, though. Homely girls like you usually don't make it far in this sort of business." She chirped audaciously, causing the girls behind her to laugh.

I raised my eyebrows at her passive aggression and pushed my purse off my shoulder and caught it with my hand." Excuse me?" I voiced bluntly, shifting my weight from one leg to another.

"Oh don't take it personally sweetheart--," She began but I cut her off in a biting tone, stepping forward.

"You got one time to call me sweetheart before I become a little less sociable." She drew her head back at me, gaping at my straightforwardness.

Luanne emerged from behind me, stepping between the two of us," Ima, go get ready for your next scene, honey." She instructed, gesturing her away. The blond pornstar glared at me and sized me up one last time before leaving in a huff, the two girls following her.

Luanne turned to me and gave me a tight smile," Sorry about her. She's somehow self-centered and insecure all at once." I scoffed out a laugh and nodded in understanding as I looked away from Ida and leveled my gaze with hers.