People say I'm mental. They say I'm a sinner. I use tothink it was all lies but now...I don't know anymore. Mother says they're taking me to a place where I'll get better, a place where they will get me back to normal.
I listen to my mother talking. Talking about me. Just yelling at my father as if it is his fault. They are taking me to this place called Ellswood in less than two hours. I have to finish packing. I don't get to say goodbye to my friends though, mother says it will just make it harder.
I look at my now almost empty room. How long will I be at Ellswood? Will I ever come back? I am only 16 years old but will I spend the rest of my life there?
"Rose, are you ready", mother yells from downstairs.
I close my bedroom door and walk down the stairs. On our way to the airport I listen to music on my iPod. Mothers lips are moving and she's looking at me but I can't hear what she's saying. I take out my earphones.
"Rose, you can't take that with you. Please give it to me", she says and I put it in her hand. As we drive I swear out the window. Not looking at anything really, just seeing the shapes of everything one last time.
As I'm waiting to board my plane with mother a girl walks by. I look at her for a while. I guess you could say I was even kind of staring. Suddenly I feel my face start to burn. Did my mother just slap me? I look at her confused and angry. "Don't you remember why you're going to Ellswood In the first place?! You cannot like girls! It's a sin! God will damn you to hell", she keeps shouting. I stopped listening to her a long time ago but yet she's still shouting. I think she's right being a lesbian is a sin against God.
We board our plain. I just sit there...starring out the window. The pilot says we are about to takeoff. My heart starts breaking all over again. I didn't even say goodbye to my friends. Not that I talk much but they say my presence is enough.
I start getting tired half way through the flight. I shouldn't sleep mother might just try to kill me. I stay awake the whole flight. I wonder what it's going to be like over there.
I start drifting off into a slumber full of nightmares...
