The nightmares

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It was the 14th May, a week before my brother's memorial. Every year since I turned 12 from the 14th - 21st May, I get these nightmares of what happened that day. I'm in my child body and the same things keep happening and everyone blames me for my brother's death even though in real life only one person blamed me. I have some kind of insomnia during this time and I can't sleep properly. I held my phone in my hand. I got down from my bed, I walked over to door when I got a phone call from none other than my not only childhood best friend but my kinda sister Eunha. We've known each other since we were 5. And we have been besties ever since She was also my housemate in University. I lived in her house cause it was closer to our University. I picked the call.
"Hey Jas You ok? It's the 14th I called to check on you" she said sadly
"Eunha It's ok I'm fine I'm taking care of it. Besides I'm so happy you called and you remembered." I said
"I wouldn't I remember something this important about my little sis" she said
"We're the same age!!" I said
"Yeah but I'm still 6 months older than you" She nagged
I giggled " I'm so happy you called unnie. I missed you." I said
"I missed you too. So what do say to an all night talking session." She said
"You know so well Unnie" I said.
We talked till 2am in the morning.
"Unnie Unnie UNNIE???????" I called but no answer. Eunha is someone who sleeps really early as in 00:00.
"Alright Unnie I see you're asleep. Good night then bye I love you unnie bye" I said. I hung up and sat for a while. I looked outside and opened the door. I went out of my house and climbed the hill and stood infront of BTS' house. I walked to the grass lawn Infront of their house on the hill and laid there with my notebook in my hand. I looked up silently at the stars. I opened my notebook to the middle page where I had drawn a full portrait of my brother without glasses and a half portrait of him with glasses. And took my locket with a picture of him and me that was taken in our special garden on the left side when he was nine and I was six and on the right side the photo was a picture of me, him and Eunha when he was twelve and me and Eunha were nine. I couldn't sleep so I stayed there all night talking to his photo. Around 5:30 am I went back in and went to bed but woke at 7:30 am because of work ugh I was so freaking tired. I took a shower and put on this outfit and makeup to cover my tiredness.
My outfit

The members left before me because I told them to

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The members left before me because I told them to. I slept both on the boat and car ride. I reached the company and did all my work while dozing off a little. I was watching the members learn dance moves from the choreographer. I dozed off most of the time. Someone tapped my shoulder I was startled. "I'M NOT ASLEEP" I yelled. The person who tapped me was Seokjin. He was surprised as I woke up shouting. "Yah Manager nim Why are you shouting at me and what were you doing so late that you've been sleeping this whole time" He shouted back. "oh sorry Seokjin-ssi I was just tired that's and I stayed up a little late filling some paperwork" I said while rubbing my neck. "Are you sure? You look so tired. What were you really doing" Namjoon asked. " Yeah.... And I was also talking to my friend sister a little late that's all" I assured him. "Please take of your health Manager nim. You always laugh and smile seeing you like this is so different." Hoseok said. "I'll be fine I promise" I told them. *Something is up with her* Taehyung, Jungkook, Jimin and Yoongi thought. At the end of the day, It was the car drive home, I was seated in the middle of Taehyung and Yoongi. The car drive was so so soothing I just couldn't stay awake I fell asleep on Yoongi's shoulder. He flinched a bit but looked at me and smiled. We reached the dock and I was still asleep on Yoongi's shoulder. "Hyung let's not wake her she seems to be very tired." Taehyung said. They all looked at me. Then Taehyung carried me bridal style to the boat. He seated me on laps making me lean on him until we got to the house. He was carrying me to my house when I woke up to feel I was levitating. I looked up to see Taehyung carrying me. "Taehyung??" I whispered. "Jasmine you're awake. I was just taking you to rest and---- " I cut his words. "Thank you Taehyung but uhhh could you put me down now?" I asked with a smile. "Oh sorry " he said while putting me down. "You really slept didn't you? In the car you slept on Yoongi hyung's shoulder and then I carried you to the boat and carried you the whole time you were asleep in the boat." He explained. "OH MY GOODNESS I'm so sorry for stressing you guys out." I apologized. "It's ok no problem. Ok I'm going up now. Please join us for dinner." He asked. "Yeah Of course I will" I assured him then he left. I entered my room, set an alarm for 20:00pm and collapsed on my bed with my clothes not changed. After so time, my alarm rang I reluctantly got up change to my blue pyjamas and sky blue furry bunny headband then washed my face.

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