Fairytail : Heartbeats

The Letter

Dear Mommy,

I know its only recent that I confessed my feelings for Natsu. These feelings were always there within my heart but I never realised.

Now that I've realised, how can I pour out my deepest secrets? How am I able to tell him that he owns the key to my heart?

He is not here mommy. He is long gone. I've lost him. I've lost my very first and last love.

I am broken mommy.

Am I supposed to feel like this only? I never felt so much pain. I nearly died for many times over the past. My body gave up but my friends and Natsu supported me. Anchored my soul to be with them and struggled for me. They never gave up on me.

He believed in me.

I know he did.

And now? Now I am a cold dead corpse. My body moves and functions. I can eat and talk. But the real alive me is gone. I died the day I lost him.

I can't take it mommy.

He told me no matter what, no matter where he will be, he will be always watching over me. Its a promise every guild member gives to each other.

Please watch over me Natsu. Will you?

And yeah, I love you. I've always had and I always would.

Mommy? I know its not intentionally done by me but why whenever I love someone, they die?

Love,

Lucy Heartfilia

The blond mage cried on her desk tinting the letter with her tears.

She cried till every drop of water was drained out of her body. Tears streaking the freshly written letter, blotting some words.

After a while she stood up and washed her face. Then decided to go the guild. No matter how much it hurted to know that Natsu won't be their waiting for her with his innocent grin but she had to. Her family is still there to support her.

She entered the guild. The guild was occupied by unreal silence. To say the truth, it was like that since the day Natsu died. No one seems to be their selves. Its been six months but it seems like it just happened yesterday. Their world is frozen but the time flows stealthily.

Natsu was on a job with happy alone.

The celestial mage, the scarlet haired mage and even the ice mage blames themselves for letting the dragon slayer go on his own. But its not they anticipated anything. They would have laughed it off, the thought of accompaning Natsu on a job for safety.

What makes their blood boil is that he was killed by some cowards who used cheap tactics and tricks. They surely avenged him but its hard to believe that the guy who defeated Hades was killed by some buffoons.

There was pin drop silence. The celestial wizard was the power source of Fairy Tail. Her smile filled everyone with hope but she forgot how to smile. It kills everyone to see her like this.

Suddenly she got up.

"I think its enough guys."

She said with tears through her eyes.

The determination in her voice made every head turn in her direction or maybe it was because she spoke for the first time after her love cease to exist physically.

"What do you mean Lucy?"

Levy spoke while adjusting herself in Gajeel's arms.

Lucy smiled inwardly to see her best friend in the arms of her love. She was happy for her.

But it hurted as for the possibilities of what she could have.

"Let's move on... the pain is too much to bear. But the mourning has to be over. Its been six months. I beg you all- just-- please."

She choked on her words.

"The hell! We lost Natsu! How-- the-- Damn! I miss him...."

A loud voice echoed as Juvia helped him calm.

Tears began to fall down Gray's eyes and everyone tried to control their another breakdown.

"Natsu won't like everyone being like this."

Lucy mumbled. More for herself than the others.

"Aye! Lucy I agree."

The blue exceed said while sobbing.

Everyone agreed and Lucy smiled. Every face in the guild light up just by watching at her. They were grateful... she was definitely their sunshine and hope.

Everyone smiled and soon they can feel the remorse fading away. They took a step by accepting the reality.

Lucy was still smiling. Smiling brightly and reassuring every single soul. But it was Erza who see through her. She smiled painfully. She knew that Lucy found a new way to hide her pain. Just looking at her Erza's heart ached.

She knew from the start that Lucy loved Natsu and Natsu did too.

Another tear slip down her cheek as she smiled grimly. She could feel the pain of her family ans sge swore not to cry for the sake of them.

Its just that sometimes the pain is unbearable.