Beauty In Death | Han Jisung ✅

Chapter 17 / Closer

**Warning! This Chapter contains gore and extremely sensitive topics. You have been warned..

Han's POV

"What brings you two here???" A loud high pitched feminine voice calls.

We both sit up to see an angel sitting at a pure white desk. They flick their wings and asks us the same question again. Envy looks at me to speak up and so I do while standing to my feet, "I am here to see The One."

"What business do you have?"

"I was never judged." The Angel turns their head to me.

"Yes, well from the looks of it.. you seem to have been dealt with."

"That is a lie. I don't remember seeing The One for judgement." Envy randomly chuckles and grabs something from my back. 

"HEY!" I shouted getting irritated.

"You have prettier wings then me.."

"Don't fucking touch- Look, I'm not accepting shit until I see The One." The angel at the desk sighs at me and after blinking each of their seven eyes they respond.

"The One has granted your request.. ONLY if you walk the Hall of Sin that leads to the throne room."

Envy shakes their head walking backwards, "I don't think I can continue on with you Wrath.. That hall is like going through millennia of torture in only 3 minutes."

"How do you know?"

"I've been through it... The One requested it after failing me. It was.. the toughest thing I have gone through in all my years. It only stops when you understand exactly what caused you to fail."

"Well it can't be Wrath.. I'm not a person full of hate.. I guess I will find out though.."

"..Good luck.." Envy walks away and back out the hall we just got out from.

"Thanks for coming this far.." I say back. Suddenly, a hallway door by the desk opens vertically to reveal another wide white room. Though this time there was no end in sight.

The angel at the desk speaks yet again, "Go straight and you will reach it."

I walk my self into the room and start going forward even when the door closes behind me. The further I went the hazier the room became. It reminded me of how the clouds on Earth would hang low in the mornings going to school. In this case, the fog was heavy and I couldn't even see a foot in front of me. After feeling this room wasn't too bad, that's when the floor beneath me falls. Slowly, the white of the room and the fog fades seamlessly into a blue cloudy sky. It seems I was falling just like when I had jumped off that building. Soon that sky, was far and in the corner of my eyes I catch my reflection in the buildings beside me. I was still me, but after each break in the buildings windows myself now fades away into a winged creature. Three wide red eyes, six wings, and a body so sliver it was almost a mirror itself. The buildings then disappear into a black paste that I eventually smack into. My whole body stung with pain and my breathing stops, yet my eyes and mind were still wide and living. Like quicksand, I sink slowly into the black. Echoes of familiar voices mumbled out until they made my ears ring until I could understand full dialogues.

" HAN! Why did you leave me to die?"

"How could you murder me? I was your brother.."

"I can't believe you killed yourself .. Now I have a son to cry over and a coward to bury."

"..Why did you have to hate yourself so much that you left others? You really must be scared to face who you are.."

Cold hands start to cover my body. Familiar voices then drown into the screaming of strangers asking for help. I then drown completely into nothingness, but the feeling of cold desperate hands roaming my body still remand reminding me of all of those I had ignored.. 

My body jolts up and I could breath again. Though this time I was stuck on an Island with pretty blue waters. I look down at my hands to see that I was still human.. It was such a odd relief to see my pale veiny hands. Though a noise is heard, so I look up to see what was there. It was a female and a male couple in swimwear running in front of me laughing. I stand up and walk forward a bit dumbfounded to see myself here in a pretty place like this. Why is it so calm if its supposed to bring out the worst in me? I thought confused as ever. Looking to my right side, I see the two more clearly. It was Y/n and a random boy. They were so.. happy. The guy cups her face and stares at her so lovingly that it broke my heart. I keep staring until they close in for a sweet kiss. Shaking my head I kept walking forward as much as I wanted to just run to her. As slow as I was, my feet finally hit the warm waters and soggy sand. It was such a nice feeling that I started to cry the further up the water embraced my body; It felt like I was hugging Y/n for the last time. Though, this bitter sweet feeling dissipates as the blue water fades into red thick blood. 

"..If you truly loved me, you should have lived.."

Slowly, I move farther into the blood until it reaches the bridge of my nose and I am yanked down. Weirdly, I could breath but could not see. Well, that was until someone pulls me out of the blood and I was placed onto a bed of grass that poked my skin. Whoever pulled me out grabs my arms again and pulls me further inland. I look over to the person and quickly regret it as it was a large white demon with beige deer horns and the face of a blue eyed wolf. It had blood dripping off its fangs and arms as if it went through a massacre. Instantly, I look at my legs. The blood ocean was gone and replaced with dead grass, but most importantly half of my body was missing leaving a red trail behind. I sighed and looked at the sky that had a pretty violet hue and grey clouds. Slowly I started choking with every breath. My heart was slow and it beat to every quick pull of the demon. I stayed there being dragged away until the demon drops me and other demons surround me. My throat closes as various of white demons come closer to rip apart what was left of me..

This ordeal kept going and going. Every time I'd walk forward, it would pull me else where or try to distract me off course. I already feel like I have been in here for more than 5 of my life times.. When was this going to end..? I mean, I already understand why I failed.. I understand now. My wrath was towards myself. It had nothing to do with that of others.  I hated me for not saving Y/n and my brother. Mostly, however, I hated myself for not being someone my mother would love the same as my brother..

"So you know now?" Y/n says hovering over me.

"Yes." I say tucking her hair behind her ears and staring into her eyes.

She laughs and sits down on my lap. Y/n pulls out a knife and holds it above me, "Now you can let me go."

The second she stabs me I wake up to a white ceiling. I get up off that floor to see a door covered in a black film. Instantly, I walked to it ready to finally receive my true judgement from The One.