Every passing day I find myself in a war between war and peace
I'm writing letters to them, but they're already reading my mind.
Late night drives to clear my mind, only to be followed and distracted from my grind.
I take a deep breath and count to ten, tight grip round my neck, fingertips filled with sin.
Head in the clouds feeling no shame. Im surrounded by the ones who play me like a game.
I wake up with regret and try to mask my mistakes, but a mask is no good if the cracks are too deep..
They scratch and claw at my surface waiting for me to break. I deflect and repress hoping they give up. I push them away and fight them everyday. Sometimes I win but those only be rounds. When I think its over I start hearing sounds. These feelings, these thoughts, these moments wont leave. They'll just go on a vacation and come and go as they please. They creep, watch, and wait til you're on top and content, then they attack, tease, and bully you with memories you cant prevent.
Going through this daily I learned a hard lesson. I cant win this war but I wont let it stop my peace. I'll have to make room for this company, but they got to ride back seat.
I won't always win every round when the whispers began. I won't always be heard even when my silence is loud.
But it's drip or drown when it comes to this game of theirs. And as long as I dont all off, they'll be riding my waves too.
No more pushing them off my waves because I Cant Drown My Demons, They Know How to Swim.
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