not sleeping shenanigans

July 14 Thursday

I don't know who's idea it was to show me dance dance revolution but now I wanna play and that's bad cus I think I can be a literal champion 🧍‍♂️ I barely sleep so that won't happen. I also think it'll be like 2 player game from BMC (be more chill). That is why I shouldn't be allowed money I'd spend it all tryna move as fast as I can. I think the point of writing this is to write it here as if in talking to a person instead of talking to an actual person where they won't sit there and stare at me like what are you on? Idk. Compensating for a few things rn I guess? I dont even know what that means.

There's absolutely no Pepsi 6:30 am and there is only milk. And ice cream. WHICH I CANT HAVE. unless I wanna ruin my stomach. I don't think that'll be smart considering I'm tired, hot, and dissociating. So I will have to not drink anything because I'm a gremlin and do NOT drink water. Water. Is. Gross. Id prefer milk over that. Water is last resort After dehydration of course. I usually drink about a bottle every year at most? I should drink more water. I'll put that for my new years revolution thing.

I think I scared the neighbor. I screamed cus something touched my leg, probably a hair but the neighbor screamed after I did. I find that very funny. Side note should I post this? Idk I might, but I don't wanna be seen as weird. I mean I already an cus I like pineapple pizza and I've eaten bugs- not intentionally all the time but I think I'm already past that threshold of weird.

Update: I found very little coffee I left in the fridge from idk when. It's mocha too! Idk if it has milk and I can barely read the label. I'll save it for when I wake up later. Ur should I drink it? It's not expired but idk if I even want to sleep. Sleeping scares me. I don't like it cus idk what'll happen or who's gonna end up front. Or worse what if I wake up to my phone being missing. That, that scares me. Along with the very graphic nightmares that get worse every night till they cause physical pain. This is why you sleep 8 hours a day kids. Don't sleep 12+ hours and then become nocturnal. Like me! Your local 4'8 trans masc femboy who doesn't know what water is ✨

I think I'll post this part. It's almost 7am as of rn, and I just want food? Maybe? I do want to cuddle my squishmallow, who hasn't been naked yet. Maybe you can help with a name? He's a green triceratop <3
Also adding a selfie in cause idk if any of you know what I look like. Putting a pic of when my hair was freshly split dyed cus I'm too lazy rn

And 7:01 PUBLISH