The Story of Us

Some People Never Change

I hear and smell my mom cooking his favorite dish from when we were 10. I wait downstairs for him to knock. We never agreed to a time so I have to sit here and wait. I get so impatient.

12 minutes later I hear a knock on the door. I quietly go stand by the door and wait 7 seconds before opening it. When I open it he has his Letterman jacket on that fits him greatly and he smells like a christmas scent. His eyes look down on me from how tall he is and I let him in. We didn't say hi or even greet each other, I simply just say "come in." He instantly sees my mom and what she's cooking.
"Mmmhhh! Is that what I think it is?" He says this while grinning.
"Hi Mr. Myles! How are you doing?" My mom says with the hugest smile on her face.
"Oh, i'm doing just fine miss!" He says this while looking down at me like i've been apart of his life and i'm the reason he's doing fine.
"Mom we're going to go upstairs to talk for awhile." I say. I know she won't have anything to worry about.
I grab Myles hand and rush him upstairs like i'm in a rush. I don't know why I do this. I still don't know what I will say to him about prom. When we enter my room I just know he will say something about it.
"Woahhhh, this still looks the same" He eyeballs everything in my room like he hasn't seen it before.
"Well some people just never change." I say.
"I can tell". I roll my eyes when he says this.
I sit on the bed with thoughts all in my head of why I let him in my bedroom.
"Do you have an answer?" He starts shaking again when he ask this. Even when we were nine years old he would shake. He has such bad anxiety when it comes to asking questions.
"For what?" I say jokingly. "If I go with you we have to set a few rules." I command
"What are they?" He ask. I'm staring at my covers that i'm laying down on but I can feel him staring at me. I slowly turn to look at him as we make eye contact. "You can't post anything dorky on your social media about it." I say "Deal." He says without hesitation. "Myles i'm not done. If I go, you can't leave me around looking dumb and then just grab me whenever a slow song comes on." I say this looking sad. I wasn't sad, I just felt sad thinking about it. "...Deal." He says. "Okay." I whisper.
"When are we going dress shopping tho, because I already have my suit" He ask. I immediately look over at my calendar to see i'm free for the next 3 weeks. "Any day will do." I say. "Saturday! I'll pick you up and we can get something to eat before." When he says this all I can think about is his girlfriend and why she is letting him do this. But before I can say anything mom comes storming in with her homemade apple pie.
"Oh my God! It looks the same as it did in elementary school." He says. "Myles i'm so glad you like it! Would you like a piece Alli?" Mom ask. Even though I was hungry, I didn't feel like eating. "No thank you."

After he is finished with his apple pie he gets a text. I knew who it was from, I saw it. His girlfriend. I just wait looking around because I know what's about to happen. His girlfriend gets mad and he has to run over there and apologize.
"Sorry about that." He says. "It's okay. You can go if you need too." I say while looking down. "I actually have to get home. My uncle just came to town." I can't tell if he's truly being honest or lying when he says that. "That's alright." I say. He walks out the door without waiting for me to walk him down. I just sit on my bed. And then it hits me. I'm going to prom with Myles Smith. What the heck.

The next few days at school were honestly awkward. I didn't know if I was supposed to talk to Myles or not so I just stayed away and pretended he didn't exist. It wasn't easy tho. All the "Prom is soon! Catch your date!" signs just made me think of him. Him and his girlfriend didn't even look like they were enjoying themselves. I brushed everything away tho.
Lexi was sick with some kinda bug so it was just me. Friday was the hardest day of the week. I knew the next day I would have to wake up and get ready to go eat and go dress shopping with Myles. I don't know why everything is awkward now with him, it just is. Most people would be excited to reunite with their best friend but to me it just feels like i'm home wrecking someone's relationship. I want to go up to Emma look her in the face and say "Why me? Why not all the other 200 girls in this school that are more beautiful." But I don't. Lunch is the hardest without Lexi because Myles group of friends and him sit not very far away from me so I just pretend i'm busy to stop me from making eye contact with him every 30 seconds.

I'm not sure what to think about all this. Actually what I need to do is I need to grab my marker and schedule a therapy appointment for Saturday. Boom. I have plans. A plan that will only last for 45 minutes that will also cost me $105.

The drive home after school was peaceful. I didn't think about Myles. I didn't have any posters to look at to make me think of him, and there were none of his friends around either. I walk through the front door and sit my book bag down beside the couch. I lay down on the couch and pull a blanket that is hanging off the couch and put it on my body. My mom is the quickest person to come see me. "Bad day Sugar? She's always called me sugar since the day I was born. "You can say that again. And I have to live it all over again tomorrow." I say with disappointment. "Maybe don't think of it that way Alli." My moms a mental therapist so she's always been good with advice, sometimes I just don't want to believe her. "How am I supposed to look or think about this any other way mom?" I say with anger and sadness built up. "Think of it as another chapter sugar. Just another chapter." And she is right. It's just another chapter.