Why Don't You Stay - KimChay

03

It's been a couple of hours since I came back from the sanctuary where I talked with the man that's supposedly my father's old friend. Something in what he told me is a little bit odd. How could dad make him fake that he is sick and erase the information from this case? I suspected that he must hide something from us, but not at this level. A couple gets murdered leaving two brothers alone. Leavin Porsché alone. I don't want to deal with my father yet. I have to investigate more about this case and what my father has to do with it.

Nothing.

I have nothing to work with. All I've been doing these days is thinking about Ché. All day and night walking around the apartment just to try and stop myself from thinking too much. I can't forget how he stayed there when I left. He just hugged his legs and cried loudly. He looked so vulnerable and defenseless that I just looked away and continued my mission without looking back and holding the tears that wanted to express the same feelings my Ché was feeling at that moment. How is he holding on now? Is he still in my family's house?

It didn't take me long enough to grab my car keys and drive to the house. I was surprised by Khun and he told me that Porsche took Ché and started living in their previous house not long ago. I can't just go there. I came here to pretend to have some business here and see him without him noticing but if I go to their house it would be obvious my intentions.

Maybe... Our College! He told me he was accepted! How can I be so dumb?

I rapidly drove to college not before changing to my uniform. When I got there I tried to look for him but I couldn't find him anywhere. When I got to the cafeteria of my faculty I saw a classmate that I always ask for his notes every time I'm absent.

—Oh, you came to class? —He asked as I got to him.

—Nosy. —He laughs at my response but rapidly makes a curious face.

—Well, how's that kid? Why did he disappear?

—Who? —Are we thinking about the same sweet boy? Does he know where Ché is?

—The kid that you tutored. You know that he passed the practical exam, but he didn't come in for an interview exam. —WHAT?! Why did Ché not go to the interview? He has the talent for it. I'm so confused right now.

—Huh?

—Yeah, he is the promising one. The teachers were also confused. You didn't know?

Of course I didn't know. We didn't talk after that morning at his house. After that, he was kidnapped and then he went to where I live and... He didn't want to pass anymore because of me?

So, he isn't in college right now and I can't go to the Kittisawat house. I guess I should wait till they decide to come back to my family's house or wait for Ché to go back to college. I got back to my apartment after I told my classmate to contact me immediately if he saw him around. I lay on my bed to try and relax.

If Porsché didn't go to the interview, he must have been really affected by the last time we saw each other. I don't know if he is doing this just for that. He wanted me to tutor him so he can pass the exams, but he also had a private reason just like me. I knew he had a fan crush on me when I slipped into his bedroom. I saw all the posters and pictures on the walls and desk. And still knowing this, knowing that my private reason for tutoring him would break his heart I still continue with my plan. All to know my father's secret motives. Now, I'm laying on my bed, regretting the way I approached him and also regretting ignoring him for a while when I got what I needed. I didn't think Porsché's smile, scent, laugh, and cry would make my whole world do a 160-grade spin. I broke his heart and it's all my fault. It's my fault that I made him believe we could have something all the time while I was tutoring him. It's my fault that now he thinks that the sweet moments we spent together were all a lie. In the beginning, I thought it was all fake too. But the tears running down my face and the unbearable burning pain in my chest make me realize that I also lied to myself. The tears didn't stop for a while and the pain was so strong that I ended up falling asleep.

BZZ BZZZ

BZZ BZZZ

BZZ BZZ BZZZ

My phone on the nightstand woke me from a non-existent dream. I sat on the bed bringing my hand to my forehead trying to ease the headache. With the unoccupied hand, I took my phone to unlock it while I rub my eyes to get away from the sleepiness and dry tears on my face. I notice that I have 1 missed call and 4 unread messages from my classmate from earlier.

"Yo, Kim. I saw the kid."

"He is with a lot of guys at the club we talked about last week."

"Does he have a boyfriend? One of them is being a little clingy with him. I thought he had a crush on you."

[Location pin]

This guy is pretty smart for sending me the location because when I saw the messages I didn't wait any longer to get out of bed. It took me less than 10 minutes to arrive at the club and enter without any problem. It wasn't too hard to find him and his friends. There was one of them holding him back when Ché seemed planning to leave. I'm glad that he is alright even though he gave up on the exam interview. I don't want to bother him too much even if I already want to get him out of here because he seems a little bit drunk so I was planning to stay in a corner for a while or get a table for me alone. However, all my plans went to the trash when I was the guy taking out of his pocket a little bag with some pills.

Oh God, please tell me that is not what I think it is.

The guy takes one pill out and puts it in his own mouth looking at Ché. Then, he starts to take another one bringing it closer to Ché's mouth. That's all I could take from all this. When I noticed what I was doing I was already walking toward them when he held the pill close to his mouth. I got closer enough on time so I could slap the hand away.

—What the heck? —The guy tried to push me away when he was about to stand up but I pushed him back to the sofa. Another guy beside him stood up to defend his friend but I punched him in the face before he could even move too far but to where he was sitting again. While I was doing that the guy that wanted to drug Ché stood up ready to keep fighting.

—Don't. —I said pointing at him with just my index finger and imagining how to bury him alive at that moment. After he sat down I grabbed Porsché by the arm and pulled him out of that area of the club.

—Kim, why are you here? —He said angrily, getting rid of my hand. I turned back at him, still very upset. How could he just be willing to accept drugs from that guy?

—What the heck do you think you are doing?

—What I'm doing is my business! Why are you doing this? I've never messed with you so don't mess with my business!

If that's really what he wants, I would definitely do that.

—From now on, what you do is your darn decision. —And from that, like always, I left.

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Notes:

Yall, writing in Kim's POV is a little overwhelming cuz from the novel we know from Korn that he has secret and important plans for him and Kim knows it. And in the series, we only know that Kim is suspecting something and start to investigate. All that we know is that he really loves Porsché/Porschay in both versions. 

At first, I just wanted to create this fanfic so we could understand him more since we know that the Why don't you stay music video really meant something to both of them (I can't say too much because I'm planning to do something with that). Now, I really enjoy bringing this side of Kim's perspective. He has a lot to deal with. His father has plans for him and his brothers and he is sensing it. 

Well, I hope you guys enjoy the chapter. Thank youuuu a lot for reading.

PD: Once I finish this fanfic I'm gonna write a Spanish version (if you notice something weird before is because of that... my first language is not English jeje).