Xera (Gxg)

Xera-31

X-31

Alex

...cousins.

I opened my eyes at napaikot ang paningin sa paligid. I felt good, physically better than the last time I remember. Pero may kakaiba sa sarili ko ngayong umaga. It's hard to explain but something is really off.

In just a matter of minutes while still contemplating what is really strange this morning, ang bilis sumakit ng ulo ko. It's like I was trying to remember something na ang hirap alalahanin. It's like my mind is intentionally blocking a memory and a part of me is trying fo figure it out.

I remember something now. At hindi yata maganda ang epekto non.

Napaupo ako sa bed at hinila ang kumot while massaging my head. Bakit parang hindi ko na yata kilala ang sarili ko? Am I just dreaming?

Ito bang mga naaalala ko ay isang panaginip lamang?

But no, I know Quin, and who she really is both on my past and my present.

The heck, we're lovers before. It's really true. Walang pagpipilit. Kusa naming minahal ang isat isa. Kusa naming binibigay sa isat isa ang sarili namin. She accepted me. I accepted her. I know her flaws, but I love everything about her, both good and bad. In the past, she was the most beautiful disaster that happened to me. My world revolved around her. The love is real. The love is true. It's alive.

We were partners, we were soulmates. We were carefree.

Our love for each other can't be describe by words. It's like explaining the colors to a blind man since birth. It is beautiful. She's beautiful.

I loved her.

Gosh, I loved Quin.

Oh my gosh!

Did I really love her? Am I just dreaming?

Halos sabunutan ko na ang aking sarili. The memories keep flashing like a whirlwind on my head. The emotion is too much to bear.

Kaya pala ganon sya sakin. Kaya pala iba sya makatingin. Kaya pala sa twing tititigan nya ako ay parang may gusto syang sabihin. Kaya pala madalas ko syang makitang nakatingin sakin na para bang pinapanood ang bawat kilos ko.

Isa pala syang may malaking parte sa buhay ko na kung susumahin ay sya ang nakaimpluwensya ng malaki sakin.

Naputol ang pakikipag talo ko sa aking sarili nang biglang bumukas ang pinto at bumungad sakin ang nag aalalang mukha ni Quin. When she saw me, bigla itong napalitan ng relief at parang nakahinga sya ng maluwag.

"Alex, gising ka na pala." Bati nito sakin. "Oh my gosh.." Bigla syang nataranta at parang may hinahanap na kung ano sa paligid. Ako naman ay nataranta din habang pinapanood sya.

I swear, para akong lutang. Parang biglang nadagdagan ang laman ng utak ko ng napakaraming memories kahit hindi na kaya ng capacity nito.

Humablot sya ng tissue at bigla nalang tumalon sa bed palapit sakin. Halos manginig ang kamay nya habang pinupunasan ang kung ano sa mukha ko partikular sa bandang ilong ko.

Habang ako ay parang walang malay na napapatitig sa kanya.

Gosh, Quin still looks the same. How can it be? Hindi ba ako nananaginip? How can I forget what happened before and just remember it now? The way she look, she blink. The way she frown, and the way she look in my eyes.

I unconciously raise my hand and touch her face. Gosh, she's is real. I am not dreaming. This is really happening.

Binaba nya ang mga tissue na pinang punas nya kanina na may mga dugo pala at tingin ko ay nanggaling ang mga iyon sa aking ilong.