The Vacation

Chapter 17

That morning before he went to work, I talked to Jordan. He told me he had to leave and when he did my life felt empty. He knew this upset me but, he continued to do this anyway. I felt sorry for myself and realized that it wasn't working out.

I decided to get busy so, I went to the movie theater room and made some popcorn and candy and sat down. The chairs were so comfortable but, they would've felt better with Jordan next to me. I put on a romance movie and then began to cry...I dropped my popcorn and candy and ran leaving the tv on behind me. This is not how our relationship should be and at that moment I realized it. I ran to the spot that made me feel the safest.

I was thinking really hard as I scribbled a note to leave for him when he got home at 5pm. I went to his room before I reached my spot and left it on his bed. This job practically took up his day and he couldn't even spend it with me. That is the thing that made me most upset because we could be doing things together. When I put the note in Jordan's room I went to get a tub of ice cream and a diary because I'd thrown my out. Then I went to my safe spot.

My safe spot was somewhere I didn't think anyone would ever find me. Somewhere I could be alone and happy at the same time. This spot that I called a safe spot was an area between my house and the woods- right in the middle. There was this gorgeous apple tree that I always sat under and it was still there. I ran out there with my diary and my ice cream. I started eating the ice cream and my thoughts hit me and the tears came. They fell from anger and sadness and confusion.

I remembered that I had told Jordan this spot and I wanted to see if he remembered. I sat there for at least 4 hours just writing and I had almost finished. Then I heard footsteps and my name being called "SABRINA!" over and over again. I wondered if someone was concerned. Jordan found me and sat next to me. He stared at me for at least a minute before saying "baby what's wrong?" and grabbing my hands. I didn't want to explain but, I had to since it was the only way that it could be solved. But, I stayed silent. I wrote in the notebook.....did you find my letter? He said "yes...I don't want to break up..Sabrina I love you and I knew that you didn't mean it." I then wrote "maybe I did....". He ran off crying.

I went inside to look for him because he needed to know how I felt. I found him in the movie theater crying in the corner seat. He didn't have the movie screen on but, he was just sitting there sobbing. I took a seat next to him and said "I'm sorry ok...but, you need to know how I feel." He just looked up at me. I looked at his hand and saw that they were all bloody. I then saw his arm all cut up and I started crying. I told him "babe, omg please don't do that again. I didn't mean anything that I said but, I wish you didn't have to work because I want time with you. It's the summer and now we can chill out with no worries. What happened to that? Why don't you want time with me?". "I was trying to save up money to buy you a car and a nice dress....I will quit my job. I only took it for the money and because the people needed help." he said choked up. I just looked into his eyes.

He then had so much anger and sadness in him that he punched me in my face and I could feel a black and blue coming in. I knew he didn't mean it but, it hurt like hell. He stayed down there until he could cool off and then came back up to me.

When he knocked on my door he had a sad look on his face and he said "I am leaving. We never get along and you don't deserve to have a man like me. I punched you in the face and -" I cut him off. I felt the salty tears come to my eyelids and they were burning at the sides. I grabbed him into a hug and I wasn't letting go soon. I said "no, please stay with me. We can work this out." I took my arms out from around him and he said "ok."

That night I had to have him promise me that he wouldn't harm himself anymore. He just said "I can't promise anything. I just can't. I don't want to hurt you or myself but, there is no other way." I told him "yes there is. You can write or do anything else but that....you need to find what you like." He just smiled and said "alright babe. Goodnight."

That night was the best.....he slept next to me with his arms around me. He kissed me and he made it as though he hadn't seen me in forever. We laid there as though it was our happy ever after until morning came.

The next day, Jordan waited for me to wake up. He kissed me several times and then decided that it was ok to stick his tongue inside my mouth, lay on top of me and grab my boobs. I woke up from that and kissed him. I was actually upset because he shouldn't admire my body, he should admire me.

I didn't say anything because I really didn't want anything to happen. We just went on to continue our summer to the fullest.

***********************************************************************5 years later***********************************************************

I was finally 20 and guess what. Jordan and I were still together. He proposed to me and then said that we would get married in two years. He was the greatest guy and I was happy to have been with him so long. I know he felt the same way because since the day we met, his love for me has only grown.

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I am now 22 years old and am writing to you. Jordan and I are getting married in 3 months. The day we are hoping for is May 12th. I can't wait......I completed college and am now a doctor. That was always my dream job. Anyway, I am so glad that you read this whole thing. I know it was a silly journey but, this is my love story and I wanted to share it with you. You as the reader are lucky....The next time I will write in this is when Jordan and I are married and I open my own cupcake restaurant which I am working on...so bye for now....hope you like my love story so far.