The Vacation

part 2 Chapter 2

That morning I woke up not knowing what had hit me. I slept later than I wanted but I didn't care. It was still summer and there was nothing else I really wanted to do.

When I finally got up, Jordan was gone. I called him and told him I needed the wedding to be moved three months more. He just was completely understanding and moved it. It took a week for that to go through and then I realized my weight. I gained what felt like 20 pounds so, I went to the doctor.

I arrived to the doctor and they told me something I didn't realize-I was pregnant. OMG! I ran to the bathroom and looked in the mirror. I screamed because this was truly hard to believe. This can't be real....I'M GOING TO BE A MOM!

I wasn't ready for this but, I guess I had to be. I went to the doctor and as soon as I got out, I drove home. I just got back in my bed and laid there trying to fall asleep. I couldn't fall asleep so, I waited for Jordan's arrival.

Jordan came home an hour later. I looked upset and was sweating and I knew he could tell. He asked me what was wrong but, I didn't answer. It took me about 2 minutes to face reality and said to him "you're going to be a dad." He just said "that's incredible" and looked at me. The non existing smile made him frown. He saw how unhappy I looked and asked me what was wrong. I just said "I have lost feelings for you...". Then I looked him in the eyes and they changed colors as tears fell down our faces. He hugged me but, felt bad. I felt his insides caving in. I knew that was the wrong thing to say but, I meant it.

Then after everything died down I just felt where the baby was. It was growing faster and faster each day. To be honest I didn't want to have a baby with Jordan now maybe in the future, but not now. Anyway we were ok and we would make it as long as he was ok.