You're My Favorite Maybe (Larry Stylinson)

Waiting

!TW! Panic Attacks

Louis POV

"Where's Gabby?" I question Niall when he walks out of his and Gabby's room alone. We had decided to go swimming in the lake this morning but we have spent a total of three hours getting ready so I'm really starting to doubt if we'll even make it out the door. 

"She's putting her swimsuit on." He replies with a slight sigh 

"What's wrong Ni?" Liam asks hesitantly, taking note of Niall's very obvious upset state  

"It's...ughh... Gabby's feeling insecure about going swimming with you guys." He answers with a shake of his head 

"Why the hell is she insecure about swimming with us?" I question this time. Gabby has no reason to be insecure, especially around us. She gets on my nerves, a lot, but I do have to admit she's quite gorgeous. I know for a fact that Liam thinks the same as well, we discussed it the morning after we watched her 'sneak' out of the house after her and Niall's first night together. So she has no reason to be insecure around us and she absolutely has no reason to be insecure around Harry or Zayn either. They both admire the shit out of her. And Niall, Niall worships the ground she walks on. 

"She's insecure because that's how she was raised and the beauty standards this world has for the female population is fucked. She was told all her life that she was ugly because she's bigger, which is fucking shit." Niall's pissed by the time he stops talking , which is completely understandable. I would be pissed too if I had to watch my girlfriend, or I guess my boyfriend...no...my Harry, struggle with loving themselves enough to not care what society says. 

"Well mate she has no reason to be insecure ever, but especially not with us. We'll show her that this is a safe place and she won't have to worry about any of that shit." Zayn speaks up this time as the rest of us nod in agreement 

"Thanks guys that means a lot." Niall says with a slight smile, tearing up just enough for all of us to notice and pull him into a giant group hug. 

"What the hell is going on in here?" Gabby asks as we break apart letting out a laugh as we do

"Forget about that let's go swimming!" Harry yells this time as him and Zayn start picking up towels and giant floats to take down towards the lake. Me and the rest of the group laugh as we watch them struggle out the door before we finally decide to grab the rest of the items and follow. 

"I like your swimsuit Gabby." I say to her as we make our way down the trail to the lake. The trail is only wide enough for two people to walk next to each other so Zayn and Harry are in the front, then Niall and Liam, and Me and Gabby are bringing up the rear. So I decided to take the moment to break the comfortable silence between us to complement her, just to make sure that she knows that she has no reason to be insecure, that and I really do like her swimsuit. It's a lilac purple bikini that fits her so well I almost ask if it was custom made just for her. 

"Thank you" She responds quietly putting her head down probably to hide her very prominent blush. I just nod in response, not knowing what else to say. I could tell her to not listen to what everyone else says and to say a big fuck you to the shitty beauty standards this world has for people but I decide against it. 

Harry's POV

I smile when I catch the little interaction between Louis and Gabby. It made my heart happy this morning when I saw just how pissed off the rest of the guys got just knowing that Gabby was feeling self conscious about going swimming with all of us. It made me realize just how amazing they all were. I figured she would get a little uneasy at least once during this trip and I was a little worried about it because I know how much she hates it, but as soon as I saw how the guys reacted I knew that I had nothing to worry about. She'll be fine, she's got five overly loving and protective boys to be there for her anytime she needs now. 

I'm still smiling when we make it to the dock, not noticing Louis was behind me until he wrapped his arms around my waist. 

"Well hello" I giggle as he nuzzles his head into my neck, butterflies erupting in my stomach. 

"Hi" I can feel him smile against my neck, making my smile grow even wider. Since we got here Louis has been extremely affectionate, which is amazing don't get me wrong, but I still find it quite weird. Louis just doesn't seem like the affectionate type, hell he wasn't like this until we made out against the car, but I guess he just didn't feel comfortable enough until then. But again I'm not complaining I quite love all the kisses and little cuddles that I've gotten the past two days that we've been here. I just hope it doesn't stop when we go back to our normal lives, especially seeing that we aren't even officially dating yet, which is something I hope happens before we go back.

"Come on love birds get in the water!" Liam yells as he pushes us both into the lake, the whole group laughing. 

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"Damn, I gotta say this trip is by far my favorite and we've only been here two days." Niall says with a sigh as we all murmur in agreement. After we spent three hours at the lake we decided that we would go back up to the house and just hang out the rest of the night. We are all now sitting in the living room, drinking mostly Guinness, and talking about anything and everything.

"I agree mate, I hope it stays like this the rest of the trip." Zayn pipes up this time

"I know what will make this trip just a little more fun...." Niall's talking now, an evil smirk covering his face. I already know what he's gonna say before he even says it. "Truth or Dare." 

"Ugh what are we twelve?" Louis groans out a complaint as he hands Liam another beer before he plops down beside me. 

"Come on Louis it will be fun, trust me." Niall winks at him now, causing chills to run down my spine. I can only imagine what Niall meant by that. After that Louis agrees which causes the rest of the group to let out cheers, I however just rolled my eyes. 

Then we begin playing the game, dare for Liam to give a strip tease, truth for Gabby to tell a very detailed story about how she lost her virginity, and a dare for Niall to skinny dip in the lake. Zayn and Gabby quite enjoyed their boyfriend's dares, however I was too anxious about what would happen when it's finally my turn to participate to enjoy it as well. I have tried to get Louis attention at least twice to let him know that I'm not having fun at all but he hasn't gotten the hint. He has been drinking but I didn't think he'd drank enough to ignore me and not notice it. 

"Alright Harry Truth or Dare?" Niall asks with an evil grin. I want to say 'Truth', I want to take the easy way out, but no one other than Gabby had answered 'Truth' the whole game, and she only said it once, since then everyone did a dare. And even though I didn't want to do it I said 'Dare' anyway.

"I dare you to take Louis upstairs and give him a blowie." Niall giggled at himself but I couldn't move. I was frozen, I didn't know how to react, I couldn't do that....could I? I glance at Louis trying to gauge his reaction but as soon as I make eye contact with him he looks away. I can't tell if he's blushing, his face has been red from drinking since his second beer, but I do know that everyone is staring at me waiting for my next move. I couldn't take it anymore so I grab Louis hand and drag him to our room. Using the dare as a way to escape the eyes that are following my every move.  

My breathing is getting more erratic the longer I stand here, my throat feels like it's closing with each breath, my whole body is shaking, and I'm waiting. Waiting for Louis to save me, waiting for him to pull me out of the darkness that is clouding my vision.

Waiting...

Waiting...

Waiting