I opened my eyes, stretching my fingers across the cold, lonely sheets, searching for warmth. But, all that cold be found was my phone, buzzing non-stop on the edge of my bed.
I sat up and searched through the messages, all from my best friend, Baekhyun. I felt terrible, how could I do this to him. He had earlier confessed to me, and I rejected him. He moved on, and found a girlfriend who he loves.....but I developed feelings for him. I hadn't realized these feeling for a while, I had just pushed them away, unable to face the fact that I had fallen for my best friend, hard. I didn't realize it, until it was too late. I had fallen hard, and I knew the landing would hurt...a lot.
What was even worse was the fact that he was dating my best female friend. So I had to hang out with them, then being possibly the only like able people in school.
I knew, he could tell I was acting weird, due to all the texts. Because, lately I just couldn't take it. I was selfish. They were acting adorable together, and I got upset. They are perfect for each other.....absolutely perfect for each other. But, I'm so terrible, I'm going to possibly break our friendship, my heart, and their relationship if I confess. But, I can't just keep this bottled up. I feel as if I can burst at any moment.
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I looked up at the clock. 12:10..... I sighed and laid my head against the desk. 5 minutes till lunch time.... At lunch time is the only time that I can't possibly avoid them. And knowing Baekhyun, after the texts and the worried looks that he's going to pull me away and ask me what's wrong. And knowing me I'm going to pretend as hard as possible that everything is okey, and that I'm fine....but I'm not. I'm terrible. I caught myself thinking about Baekhyun leaving his current girlfriend and my best female friend, Yerin, for me during class. I'm...actually jealous of my best friend. I should be happy, and shipping it so much, but I can't. I want that ship to be sunk, and Baekhyun to hop onto a life-boat and sail to my ship, because I'm terrible.
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"_____! Come on!" Baekhyun called. He dragged me to the side and looked at me with those tell-me-what's-wrong-bitch eyes. I pushed his hand off my shoulder gently and shook my head. "Nothing. I'm fin-" He cut me off, "Oh, ____! You've been telling me bullcrap for the past week, now tell me.." I looked up at him, "What's really going on?" He asked. I shook my head, "I'm really okey!" I protested. He sighed, "____!" He said."I'm getting frustrated right here! Just tell me what's wrong!" He said.
I looked up at him. His whining annoying me to the brim. I closed my eye as I huffed out a frustrated sigh. "You know what, I'll tell you if you really want to know so bad!" My anger boiled over. All the frustration I had with myself and Baekhyun overflowing. I threw his hands off me, that he had slithered back on. "I promised myself I wouldn't do this! But, I can't...I can't take it anymore..!"
I said, tears threatening to fall.
"Baekhyun....I-I love you!" I said, as tears rolled down my cheeks. I could see how he tensed up, and his shocked expression. He was obviously speechless.
"I-I can't believe I let myself fall so hard and fast for you...but I did! I hurt you, you moved on, and when you've finally left.. I'm selfishly pulling you back! I'm terrible! I hate myself for doing this to you. Putting you in this kind of situation. I get it if you-" he cut me off. He held my face and leaned in. I pushed him away, "No! You're dating Yerin!" I said. I ran for the door but he wrapped his arms around my waist and pulled me back.
"But I love you too!"
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Hi! This is author-nim here! This is my first official story, well it's not a story, but it's an imagine. I hope you like it. Bye~
