I looked up at the sky and smiled. It had been a while since me and Baekhyun actually went on a date, with him working a lot. I decided to do something cute, and go on a picnic.
I pulled at the grass at the edge of the blanket, twirling it in between my fingers. Baekhyun wrapped an arm around my waist and pulled me closer. I turned to him and he cupped my face in his hands, caressing my cheek with his thumb. He leaned in and nuzzled into my hair, smiling.
"I missed your smell, _____."
I blushed and wrapped my arms around his neck. He pulled away and kissed me. It was a soft, sweet, gently kiss. It was as if my lips were the most fragile thing in his world.
"I missed your taste, _____"
He pulled me into a hug. I could hear his heart beat, and his chest rising and falling with every breath.
"I missed your warmth, _____"
His hand snaked around and tickled me. I laughed and pushed him away. He grabbed me and laid me down on the soft blanket.
"I missed your laugh, _____"
He gazed into my eyes and smiled. He pulled me close, so my head was lying on his chest.
"I missed you, _____"
I closed my eyes and smiled. It was the most wonderful thing being in his arms, being his. I love him.
I suddenly felt his arms let go of me, and his warmth disappear.
"____! ____! ____, I love you! ____!" The voice called for me. It was as if someone had recorded Baekhyun's voice, but it played while water or something was in it. The voice cracking as if fire was burning through it, like a memory it would fade.
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"_____!?" I shot up from my dream. I had been lying on the tree in the field that was in my dream.
"____, you were dreaming of him again...?" I looked up at Chanyeol. I then realized something that caused me to cry.
Baekhyun..... Died long ago. He was my husband. I loved him. He loved me. He died. And I was lost. Was, I still am.
I looked up at Chanyeol with with tears in my eyes. I clung onto him, soaking his shirt with tears. He wrapped his arms around me and rubbed my back.
"It's okey, ____..... It's okey."
I hated the fact that I used Chanyeol like this. I was using him for emotional comfort. He reminded me of Baekhyun in some ways. Maybe it was his warmth, or the way he made me laugh, his cheesy jokes, his classic mad laugh....all Baekhyun...
"Chanyeol...."
"Yes?"
"When will I forget him?"
