Why Don't You Love Me... //style South Park

chapter two

Kyle did self harm. When the pain inside his chest got too much, he cut his arm with his pocket knife. He felt relieved then, because the physical pain would distract him from the pain in his heart.

One day, when his family wasn't home, he couldn't find it but he absolutely needed to cut. It was when Stan got together with Wendy, again, and when he told Kyle how much she hurt him, but that he still loved her... When Kyle heard that, he got mad and sad, because he had loved Stan so much, for so long... But Stan didn't see that, he always went back to Wendy. And Wendy kept on hurting him. His troath and eyes hurt from all the crying, and yelling so he took a kitchen knife and cut in his veins.
He never expected there to be so much blood.

Apparently his family came home, and saw him lying on the floor, covered in blood.
Luckily they got him to the hospital on time.
Ike never fully got over that.
When Kyle woke up in the hospital, he saw Ike sitting next to him, his eyes red from tears, and he sniffed: 'd-dont do something like this again-p-please-'
Kyle then realized how much it must've hurted Ike to see him, covered in blood, so from than on he tried to stop.

But he couldn't.

He thought back of the hospital incident when Ike was laying next to him, his face covered in tears.
He hated himself.
Kyle hated himself for falling in love with his best friend, he hated himself for cutting himself, and not being able to stop with it.
He hated himself when he saw how much he had hurt Ike, when he thought that he was only hurting himself.