holding onto you.

chap.1

        I'm high as fuck right now.   starting tomorrow I am officially going to be moving away from this shithole to California. I am currently walking around at what i  went to grab my phone out of my back pocket to check the time 10:21 pm. I sighed I  kept on walking but a loud noise erupted from my stomach. I am starving I thought as I  took a left turn on the road to the way to a local McDonald

"Hi, can I please have a number 2 with a dr. pepper" I said "Yeah that would be 5.36" I  handed the worker a 10-dollar bill. "keep the change" I winked. I sat down next to a window and began thinking, 19 years I lived here, and tomorrow it was all gonna change. you took a big bite from your burger. I haven't been anywhere other than here in Texas. Maybe California gonna be good for me. I pray to god that the men there are ACTUALLY attractive.

After I was done I picked up a rolled blunt from my pocket and lit it. I mean I'm happy that I'm finally getting away from here. after my dad was sent to prison for abusing me literally my whole life I had nobody to stay with. Only an aunt from Cali she insisted that i come to stay with her.  Plus I got accepted into a good school there too. guess you can call me a nerd. I finally reached my house and entered it. it's crazy how so much shit happens in a single household I sighed as I went up the stairs to my room.

I  jumped on my comfy bed. and started scrolling on my phone. After aimlessly scrolling on my for what seemed like hours, I stood up to the bathroom and took off my clothes. staring at my naked body in the mirror. A lot of people liked my body mostly the boys I mean I didn't have dd cup boobs but didn't have extremely small ones. I had an ass but I gained it mostly through sports. I'm skinny. a little bit too skinny to the point it was an ick for some men. I didn't hate my body but at the same time, I didn't love it. it's extremely hard for me to gain weight for some reason no matter how much I ate or worked out it just never worked.

Anyways I hopped into the shower using my body wash and my body scrub and did my normal usual night showed routine. after that, I wrapped a towel around my body brushed my teeth and hair, and started doing skincare. 

I changed into some shorts and a tee. Honestly, I don't really have pajamas sometimes I would just sleep with no shirt or no pants. I just liked the feeling of the cold bed sheet on my body. I still had some really bad bruises from my dad but they were fading away which was good.

I hopped back into my bed and grabbed my laptop and open a tab and typed Netflix and started watching mean girls for the 100th time I swear that movie is my absolute fave. After the movie, I was still not tired so I just hopped on my phone and started scrolling on Instagram until I came across this really pretty girl showing her scholarship to sierra college. she was absolutely stunning turned out her name is Naomi and she got a scholarship for dance. I began stalking her page growing even more excited about moving to California.

I eventually got tired and tried to go to sleep but the excitement from starting a fresh start stopped me from sleeping. Until i finally closed my eyes and slept.

Beep Beep Beep Bee- I slapped the timer off and immediately got up. "holy shit it's today it's finally today" I am so excited to go to California I got up and made my way to the bathroom and started doing my happy dance until I fell and stubbed my toe" shit that hurt" I brushed my teeth showered and got ready for the day. all of my things have been packed in advance I was so excited that the day I found out I was moving I literally stayed up and packed half of my things. My flight wasn't till 1:30 pm so I had some time to chill. 

Time flew by as it was already 12:26 pm so I ordered an uber quick considering that it takes a good hour to the airport. I waited a few minutes as I got the notification that my uber is here. I happily skipped to the door with all my luggage and entered the car. I can believe it. I've had so many bad memories and so very few small ones. I was excited to gain more happy memories in California.

When we made it to the airport I tipped the uber driver and got my luggage and started sprinting to my gate. the plane was boarding soon and I was a little bit late. but luckily I made it in just in time. As I walked through the tunnel chills and goosebumps filled my arms the vibe of me traveling was just so amazing. I found my seat number and thankfully it was next to the window.

I put my window up and saw the pretty texas sun. I wasn't really gonna miss here. I didn't really have friends. I mean I got invited to parties and hangouts. but when I was there there wasn't anybody that I would be excited to talk to. even my ex-boyfriends I didn't even really like them. I was just eager to be loved.  The plane ride there was pretty short it was abt 3-4 hours. but I slept over the whole plane ride

When the flight attendant announced we were in California and that we would be landing soon excitement filled me all over. Eventually, the plane landed I got my luggage and I wanted to run out of the airplane I was literally too excited. as I met the airport I went to go look for my other luggage.

when I finally found them. I went to the exit and ordered the uber and put my aunt's house address. I wasn't going to be staying there but until college started I was. my uber finally arrived as I looked out the window and smiled. For such a long time I was happy actually happy.

A/N" YALLLLL FIRST CHAPTERR please lemme know if there's something if you guys wanna see. also I wasn't sure of the chapter lengths of the book so if you guys want longer please tell me cause I will easily do that but if this is perfect than ok!! please tell me how I did and pls vote and share love yall!!