My Love

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" I remember opening my eyes to bright LED's. There was the sound of a monitor beeping. There was a pounding in my head. And Arny and Danny were there to greet me. They told me what happened and why I was in the hospital. I honestly don't recall anything that they described happening. I must've really hit my head hard," I chuckled. Arny had wanted me to talk to a counselor for a week now. I kept telling him I was fine and didn't remember anything, but he wanted a professional note.
" Well hun, you seem fine to me as long as you are telling the truth. If you don't remember it, it can't hurt you," she smiled. My session was done then, and I met Arny out in the waiting room. I gave him a paper the counselor had signed.
" Taelor has no memory of the night of events that could have traumatized her for the rest of her life. She is a very fortunate girl. And she will be okay, signed, Dr. Calili." Arny sighed, and hugged me tightly. He is so worked up still, a week later. Easy for me to say since I don't remember.
" Okay, I believe you. Thank you for seeing her. I want you to stay with me at night though," he added, concerned despite the note. I gave him an astounded look. " That's absurd Arny, we're neighbors! AND you said you'd drop it if I saw a professional and got a note saying I was fine! Why haven't you dropped it!?" I shouted. I became self-concious and looked around. At least no one is in here, I sighed.
" Because, dammit! I want to make sure you're safe! I want to have you right next to me, that way I KNOW you're there, and safe with me. I want you there to help ME, Tae. I need help, too. I- I can't explain it." He banged his fist on the wall, and I immediately felt bad for shouting.
" Okay. I will stay with you. But during the day time, I go into my apartment. Apollo and Trixx can't be together, he would hurt her." He looked up, his eyes huge- like a baby's. His lips parted, and he started forward. He cupped underneath my chin, and pressed his lips to mine. He held his lips to mine for a good, solid second, then pulled back and let his hand fall. " Thank you," he said, relieved.

It was 9PM, and I have to be at Arny's in 15 minutes. I had taken a shower, packed my toothbrush, and checked up on the bunny. It wouldn't be the first time she's home without me, I thought. I will head over early, I've got nothing else to do.
I shut and lock my door, and Arny is leaning against his car, waiting for me.
" We aren't going anywhere, right?" I asked. " I mean, I'm in pj's," I pointed out. He shook his head, and his curls floofed around.
" No, I'm just waiting for you. I don't have any chairs on my porch." I looked, and sure enough, no furniture.
I walked over, gripping my toothbrush in my hand. " It's cold, can we go inside?" He pushed off of the car and led the way in. We walked in, and I set my brush on the kitchen counter by the sink, and looked in the living room.
" Um, Arny. Do you have blankets and pillows I can use for the couch?" He looked at me from the door, taking off his shoes. He opened his mouth like he was going to say something, and hesitated. He put his hands into his sweatshirt pocket.
" I was actually thinking you'd stay in my bed, with me," he said. He didn't make eye contact. He just stared at the TV, awaiting my response.
" I- I, um. I mean, if- if that's okay. If that's what you want," I stammered. I didn't expect him to be so direct. It was nice that he was gaining courage.
He didn't acknowledge that I had responded, he just walked briskly down the hall and into his room. I hesitated before following. The only light was from his purple LED lights and Roku TV. When I entered, he was already laying down, flipping through Netflix to find something to watch.
I stood in the doorway, not knowing what to do. I don't want to just make myself welcome and sit on the bed with him... I frowned and pondered options. I can grab a blanket from the closet and 1 of the pillowws from his bed and make a bed on the floor. I started to walk towards his closet and he looked over at me. I stopped in my tracks.
" What are you doing," he smiled, rolling onto his stomach and looking directly at me. " I'm grabbing a spare blanket, and stealing a pillow to make a bed on the floor. Why?" He glared at me, " Absolutely not!"
He got up, and ran to where I stood... and picked me up. " ARNY! Put me down NOW! NOW!" I screamed. " As you wish," he said, and THREW me onto his bed. I sat up, ready to protest, but then laughed instead. " You're so dumb! Don't pick me up, ever again!" I scolded, scooting over as he sat down with me.
He laughed, " Or what, hmm?" I grinned like the Cheshire Cat, and ruffled his hair. He grabbed my wrists, giving me that 'don't you dare' look.
" Excuse you. What do you think you're doing?" He looked mad in a calm way. " I was showing you what I would do if you picked me up again," I smiled innocently. " So, are you going to let go, or-" and I didn't finish because he put both of my wrists in 1 hand, pushed me down flat on my back, pinning me down. He put my hands above my head, and lightly sat on my hips. I could feel the heat of blood rushing to my face.
" Hey! Get off, nerd!" I protested, squirming around. I didn't move an inch from where he had me. Damn he is strong... that's sexy. Shit, he is on top of me! That's sexy too- STOP! I cut off any further thoughts.
Arny looked deep into my eyes, his face relaxed. He slowly started to lean forward, bringing his face right in front of mine. My heart started to race, and my breathe became uneven. He half-smiled, " Love, does this make you nervous?" I glared at him, and he chuckled. Suddenly, I felt his lips against mine, and I immediately responded. I closed my eyes, smiling during our kiss. I felt him smile too, and it just made me feel so happy.
He deepened the kiss, hungry for more- and I welcomed him. He lightly slid his tongue across my bottom lip, asking for access. I parted my lips slightly, and he slipped his tonuge in, exploring my mouth. My tongue intertwined with his, and fought for dominance. He won, of course. He stopped and we both panted, catching our breaths. We still didn't have regulated breathing, and he leaned down and kissed my neck.
This sent electrticity through my body. It was the most magical thing anyone could ever experience. He kissed and kissed. My jawline, my neck, my collar bone, and I felt his free hand move to push my shirt out of the way. He bit my neck. I gasped, soaking in the feeling of this amazingness. God, he is fucking magical.
I whimpered when he bit down again, this time pulling my skin as he slowly released my flesh. He sat up once more and made eye contact with me. I was shaking. He is so intimidating, in a good, sexy way, I thought, and apparently he could tell I was doing so.
" What are you thinking, Love? Am I doing a good job?" I looked into his eyes, smiled, and nodded. He kissed me lightly again, and got off of me. I pouted to myself. That's not what I wanted... So I got on top of him.
" T-Taelor, what are you doing?" He asked confusedly, and I shushed him. " Don't make a big fuss. I just wasn't done," I added. And I kissed him, and he kissed me back. He grabbed my hips, moving them up against his. I could feel my body starting to get turned on. I had 1 hand on the side of his neck, and the other gripping and pulling his hair. He groaned into my mouth, and he lifted his hips, trying to ease the tension growing in his sweatpants.
I decided to try and bite his neck too, and I think he liked it. He GROWLED, and whispered a quick 'fuck' before biting his bottom lip. I smiled against his skin, bit down again, and began sucking. " Yes, " he whispered. I liked the idea of marking, and perhaps he thought the same.
When I finished, I leaned back to admire the purple and red mark adorning his neck. Damn, I did good, I smiled, biting my lip. I was sitting directly on his lap, and he was sweating with frustration. He leaned up, cupping my face and kissing my neck again. I threw my head back, inviting him. He sucked a hickey onto my skin as well, and pulled away to look at me.
I grabbed the bottom of his shirt and lifted it up and over his head. This is the first time I saw the koi fish tattoo. It was beautiful on him, dark ink on his pure skin... He started to grab the bottom of my shirt, too, and I stopped him.
" Wait, I'm not wearing anything underneath." He stopped, confused. " Isn't that the point?" He asked. How do I tell him I'm not ready after I've been sitting here basically teasing him? I started to tear up, worried about him getting mad at me for teasing him, and he hugged me.
" Hey, hey. Don't cry, what's wrong? Did I do something?" He rubbed his hand on my back, and I had my arms around his neck so I could play with his hair. A single tear slid down my face and touched his shoulder.
" I- I'm not ready. And I realize I've been basically teasing you this whole time, and I'm sorry for leading you on. I just- I'm not fully comfortable with my body, and I'm not ready for you to see me vulnerable, I'm sorry," I closed my eyes, the second tear falling.
" Love, Love. Don't cry, stop. It's okay. I just want you to know that you are beautiful. Nothing about you could ever change that, okay? Nothing will change my mind, do you understand? You're perfect. Everything you're uncomfortable with, is natural, and that is beautiful. I love you, don't cry." And I did stop crying, because he said the 'L' word. He loves me... I leaned back, and looked him in the eyes.
" Don't fuck with me Arny. Do you mean that? Do you love me? Tell me the truth. You aren't just saying that to make me feel better or to get into my pants?" I demanded. He looked shocked.
" Taelor, of COURSE I'm not using you, how dare the thought even cross your mind! And I mean, yes I am saying it to make you feel better, but I'm saying it because I love you and want you to know that, and maybe knowing will make you feel better?" He held my face with his hands, and I put my hands over his.
" I love you too," I smiled.