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You left me (Part 1) - ZeeNunew

Summery:

Everyone knew that Nunew was attached to his Hia, P'Zee. Everyone saw the sweet and caring side of him and sometimes a little naughty and moste time a little shy. Everyone commented on Zee's personal change and everyone was happy for them. But life change and not everything is as it looks.

WARNING: Could get quite angsty so read with caution because there is suicide attempts

P'aof looked at Nunew from afar. He had changed so much and yet not at all. He stood tall and emotionless as the photographer kept guide his pose for each picture. As the younger worked, P'aof could tell all the change the younger had went through. Even he himself didn't know what happened but he knew where it started and he knew who were involved.

Nunew changed position again and as the last picture were taken, the photographer stood up straight. "great job KIRIN" he said and gave a thumbs up. Nunew smiled a small smile and nooded, "We're done?" he asked and the photographer nooded. "Cool," Nunew said and turned to walk out. When he walked past P'aof, he gave a small smile and said, "I'm off." Without waiting for an answer, Nunew walked to the dressing room and changed out of todays work outfit. When he came out again, he had a black leather jacked over a red t-shirt on and black jeans with chains attached. He carried an red and black superbike helmet and walked out of the studio. P'aof followed him out to the back were Quilin were parked. Since the change, Nunew had taken on the persona KIRIN, wich he played in his first drama series. He even asked P'aof if he could use KIRIN as a stage name and bought the superbike after the end of the filming. He didn't use it at first, but when he disapeared. Nunew changed completely. He almost became KIRIN, focus on his music and model work, he didn't want to act and P'oaf had tried to pair him with someone else, but for Nunew it wasn't the same. So they decided to let him focus on his music. Nunew put his helmet on and mounted the superbike. One last look at P'oaf and then he was off. P'aof had given him the rest of the day off, so Nunew decided to drive to his safe house. Much like KIRIN in the Cutie Pie series.

What P'aof didn't know, was that P'Zee had secretly followed Nunew on IG and twitter. He was sad that he had left the younger, but a family emergency had pulled him from the spotlight earlier than he had planned and because of his guilt he didn't go back. On IG and twitter, Nunew was still the cherfull young artist under Domundi but behind the scenes, everyone of the Domundi team could tell that he boardered on having a depression. In the beginning Nunew had tried contacting P'Zee, but Zee had went underground and silent, so there was no way to get in contact with him. Even P'Max, Zee's surposely best friend, didn't know were he was. Max's boyfriend, Nat, had also tried, afterall Zee had a soft spot for the youngest member of Domundi. But even then it had resulted in nothing. After several month of searching, Nunew gave up, he changed. P'aof saw it with own eyes, the day Nunew became KIRIN.

Somewere else, Nunew had finally reach his secret apartment and had locked himself in. In the apartment were photos of him and Zee, though some of them were ripped, and some of them burnt. Nunew walked through the appartment and along the way he threw his jacket on the couch. As he reached his bathroom, he looked at himself in the mirror. Who was that in the mirror? Nunew thought as he took in his apearence. His black hair were flat against his head because of the helmet, his red t-shirt reminded him about KIRIN and showed his slim figure. He had become thinner, maybe a little taller but ultimately he looked older. Hi, I'm KIRIN a thought popped up. Where's Nunew? He asked himself but got no answer. Right... I'm Nunew, I'm an actor, a singer, a musician, a model and Hia's ex.... Nunew kept repeating the last bit of the list. Hia's ex... The mer thought got him crying and even though it had been almost a year, he was still heartbroken. He left... He left me, was I not good enough, am I to clingy, do I ask too much or should I change? ........ It hurts, please.... somebody help... Mae, Papa, July..... Hia...... They all left me... Nunew's thoughts kept running and it became to much. Everytime it became too much he felt his hips getting warm and the scars there were itching.