Second Choice

Chpt 5 -after the heartbreak

I kept texting her,trying to get her and Andrew. I knew what I did now. I also realized everything... every little thing i did, i knew it would hurt her but i didn't know she would hurt this much. What kind of friend am i? I can't even call myself that what kind of person am i?

I need to fix this because she means the world to me, she's the one who cares the most. She's always there for me and puts others first. I got out of my car and walked to the side of the house since she had her window there. I started to climb since I needed to speak to her. I saw her window was open so I climbed up. I held on for a little bit just staring. Her older brother was there sitting on her bed with her. Oh great Tyler is going to beat my ass now. I'm pretty sure he would know. I climbed in and just stood there. I held my head down not wanting to see her hurt face. Tyler stood up and walked towards me. I knew i fucked up but i didn't want to get beaten to death over this. He looked at me and whispered "hurt her again i'll have you in a bodybag, now fix this"

I just silently nodded, he left the room and left me and Marcia there. Alone. I knew she was hurt and mad. Heartbroken. I walked over to her and sat down beside her. I knew she was angry. She had every right to be. Wasn't her fault, it was mine. I made a mess and now I have to clean it. I looked over at her and went to speak but she cut me off. "Andrew, you know it hurts right? To go through this. Why didn't you notice before?" she said softly "don't you remember she has a boyfriend? Did you plan to hurt him too? God you're so stupid sometimes"

She started to cry slightly and I wanted to just tell her everything. Everything I knew was everything that just hit me. But I knew she didn't want to hear it. "Marcia, sorry doesn't fix this i know but look im sorry i didn't mean to hurt you i know im stupid, i clearly am blind to "i laughed silently "because i didn't see this coming, or that i would hurt you..." 

She was still hurt. I knew she just needed someone to be there. It was my turn to be there for her over something I did. I know she couldn't forgive me. At least not now. I pulled her into a hug, her face buried into my chest. She cried softly. Ii told her I was sorry and that I knew she couldn't forgive me, I just wanted to tell her everything would be alright but I knew it wasn't right now. I needed to find a way to fix it somehow. She stopped crying afterwards. A few minutes of just silence went by and she spoke. "Why Andrew, are you willing to do anything? Even if it hurts those around you?" she said.

"I-" i paused "i dont know im just stupid, blind and idotic"

"Yes i know" she whispered " i always knew that"

I know I should have done what I did, but I pulled away from hugging her. I just had this gut feeling of something, like I knew what I had to do. It wasn't right but I did it. I put my hand under her chin and tilted her face up slightly, and I kissed her. I didn't know why but I did and it felt right. She kissed me back but pulled away after she came back to reality. She got mad with me and started to tell me off. "Why Andrew" she started "this isn't gonna help you"

"I'm sorry-" i started

"No.. get out" she cut me off

"Marcia i'm sorry" i said standing up

"Get Out!" she exclaimed "GET OUT!"

I did as she told me and I left. I knew what I did wasn't right considering everything that happened. I went back out through the window. She was mad and heartbroken. She was always so nice but I knew I hurt her, she couldn't forgive me. My thoughts were a mess. My whole life was. I don't know how I was going to fix this. I needed to get my best friend to trust me again, i needed her and i needed to fix this whole mess.

Marcias POV: 

I had just told Andrew to get out of my room. Which he did. He did but I knew that he wouldn't listen entirely. It was Andrew. He'd probably keep texting me and asking to hangout or climb in through my window. He was stubborn and never listened. I guess him trying was a step but also him leaving was part of step 1 to after a heartbreak. I knew I was never with him but I knew I still liked him even though it would hurt me in the end. His liking Isabelle would probably hurt others because of her boyfriend. I don't think that they broke up to be honest. Isabelle was just using Andrew at this rate for fun. To make a fool out of Andrew. I didn't want that for him. He was a jerk and a dickhead sometimes but hey he was my best friend, but i didn't want anyone to get hurt from this

I knew that i could probably do better as some people would say and myself too sometimes but right now i didn't care. I just knew he would probably be back tomorrow, i dont know im just guessing. He started to text me and i didn't want to look. I just left it alone. It was around 12:30am so i decided to actually sleep. Maybe all this was just a dream... and i just had to wake up from it. It was all just a weird nightmare.  

This is all just something. I didn't want to look at my phone because I knew I would see messages from Andrew, I just didn't want to see them yet. I wanted to go to him and just hug him but I also wanted to just punch him at the same time, mostly for being a jerk and whatnot. This was just the part to be shown after the heartbreak. I didn't enjoy this, it was all... too much to deal with.