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Ch 18. Need Your Attention

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He just pushed me into a corner, surrounding me as he always does. But I wasn't scared. I mean, this is Devon. He's harmless.

"Stay away from Kevin." he demanded. I couldn't believe why he was saying that. He just beat the hell out of Kevin just now! I am supposed to stay away from Devon, not Kevin. I can't believe he's actually ordering me around with something like that when Kevin is the hurt one. Kevin is a nice person, why should I stay away from him? And know when he mentioned Kevin I have a feeling of guilt, wanting to go back and check if he's okay. I pushed him away, giving him an angry look.

"Why? It's just Kevin." His eyes got bigger and I knew I shouldn't have said that.

"I can't believe you trust him more than you trust him!" he snapped. He was throwing his hands in the air out of his madness. I got so mad. I can trust Kevin, but did I mention that I trust him more than I trust Devon? Kevin is sweet, and not dense(like Devon is). I know I am overreacting, but Devon is the most dense person in the world. If I confess to him saying "I love yo-", missing the U if someone happen to interrupt me he'll even be that dense enough to not know that I love him. He may even mistake me that I was going to say "I love yoghurt" or something, I don't know what goes around Devon's mind. They are so different. But I don't know which of them are the best one. I tried figuring out for a while then I came back to reality, realizing that I am still captured by Devon. He leant forward, causing me a short flashback of yesterdays incident. When he tried to kiss me, after he told me who he was. I automatically turned the other way, because of the flashback - scared of being kissed. I don't mean anything to him but I just want someone that loves me to have my first kiss. Yeah, I know I haven't had my first kiss but I've avoided dating boys my whole life. Wait, I have to get back to reality again. I fall into other thoughts so easily. Maybe it's because I have all my switches in my head. Oh there it happens again.

Devon didn't look happy at all, knowing that I am worried of Kevin. He looked like guys always do in a chickflick. What's it's name... - Jealousy? No, that can't be. Devon, jealous? That is something I've never experienced. And something I don't expect to ever see in my whole life. He hit the wall behind me, when his "unknown" feeling grew bigger and he showed his anger of having that "feeling" or whatever it is. Devon is a weird one isn't he? He hit it even harder, and I got a bit scared. I couldn't hide that in my face and he saw it for an instance, getting frustrated of scaring me. Then he left. With heavy steps.

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I closed my eyes and tried clearing everything up, with just my thoughts in my head. Then I heard Kevin's voice behind me and turned around checking if he was fine.

"Are you okay?" I gasped checking him from head to toe. He smiled, nodding.

"I kind of deserved that anyway." He was laughing. So typical of little happy Kevin. I had to ask him.

"What did you do to him to make him that upset anyway?"

He looked away, thinking of what to say.

"It's complicated."

I shut up, looking at him understanding and let him explain. But it wasn't as long as I thought it would be.

"Just about a girl we both like." That, even I realized. They were fighting like crazy over her yesterday. I wanted to ask him so badly of who it was but didn't. It's none of my business. it's only between the two of them.

I spent the next two hours talking to Kevin, then realized that I just skipped class. But not as girls from movies do to go on a date. I just talked to him, not knowing the time flew away like that.

Then the whole school was hurrying home, all passing us while we were talking. I saw Devon walking past us, glaring at us.

"Devon!" I yelled. He looked back and then just kept walking. Now that's rude. I sighed. And Kevin clearly saw that.

"Do you love Devon or what?" he smiled. My eyes widened. I couldn't speak.

"I-I..." I stuttered. He was just looking at me, amused that I was speechless. When I got my confidence back I could finally speak normally.

"Of course not Kevin! What the hell are you talking about?!" I half-laughed, thinkikg about the fever-incident. He didn't seem convinced though.

Shit, I am totally using my energy for nothing. I just went home, and for the first time since Devon came here I had a normal evening, without him bugging me.

This feels so weird. I was dancing as usual, expecting Devon to pop out from nowhere and bug me as he always do. Since he came I've never had time to dance. I've always been stuck with him, or going out with Mia more often to have a reason not being with him. But I was still kind of happy(but mostly creeped out) that I got some lone time to dance.

But it's so quiet when he's not around.

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This is so weird. He's ignoring me. Totally! So now it's his turn to ignore huh? I kind of got upset that this feels like his revenge. I feel so... I don't really know this feeling. It's like he just left me. Why? I don't fucking know.

I wanted to fill up the empty space that Devon had left and called Kevin. He came in ten minutes with his bike.

"Hey babe!" And there he goes. It's just his nature. He acts like all the girls around him are his girlfriends. So a kiss is just like saying hello. But I always push him away, smiling and giving him some blondie. And now when I mention blondiemode, does Kevin know about my switches?

He looked at me, amused as usual. Kevin is like the exact opposite to Devon. He's kind and can see through people easily. That's how he figured out who I was at the prom and maybe he figured out my switches as well? I knew he saw through me at that moment.

"Do you know?" I asked, avoiding eye-contact.

He acted dumb but I convinced him that he didn't have to play stupid.

"About your split personality?"

I nodded. That's how you can put it. But It doesn't have any deep meaning into the word "split personality". I've always referred to Switches.

"I won't tell." he chuckled and even looked away to not laugh out. I was relieved. But this was too easy. I was worried sick every day when Devon found out. Not that I missed that.

But I knew I could trust Kevin.

"Thanks." I smiled and gave him his wanted hug. But it wasn't a normal hug. I felt chills when he hugged me so tightly and even grabbed my hair, and smelled it.

"K-Kevin...-" I stuttered. He didn't stop.

"KEVI-" I yelled but before I could call his name he had already let go. With force. Devon was there. And he had pulled away Kevin.

"De-" I shouted but couldn't finish it because he left off like that - still ignoring me. He left me. AGAIN. I suddenly got so pissed off. I really want his attention. Why? I don't fucking know but it's so darn it annoying.

This day was a horrible day. Seriously, it's been so weird since Kevin came here. I smiled. Let's get Devon's attention!

Time to create a new switch!

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Like it? A new switch! Though, it's not a switch that will stay forever, it's just there for some days to get Devon's attention. tell me what you think about it!

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