Diary of a Teenage Girl

April 30 2015

Early morning for me, I've been in pain from my neck and my back this morning. Also my little heart condition decided to fuck with me.

Let me tell you about my heart condition, I was born with it. I have a valve that doesn't close up all the way which creates back flow of blood inside my heart. If my heart get beating fast, it floods my heart, which causes pain, mini heart attacks, breathing problems, and more. My heart condition limits me to certain things, I pretty much have to be the laziest person in the world because if any activity gets my heart racing I'm in pain.

Anyways, I woke up from a dead sleep last night in really bad pain, so no school for me today!

Last night, I told my mom how I didn't want to go to my school that I'm at right now next year because of being bullied and I don't want my senior year to be shit. I asked about Washougal High School and she said definitely no because of my real dad. (He's a fuck head). Then I told her I don't want to go places where I don't know anybody. Then she said well online school will probably be best. I told her I would take it into consideration, but she's afraid I won't walk for graduation and she wants me to have that experience. I do too.

It got really quiet in the car after that, we were waiting for my brothers practice to end. All of a sudden, she randomly and quietly said "What about West Linn?" Which is where my twin cousin, Meghan goes. I said I would love it.

Okay; my twin cousin Meghan. Me and Meghan met eachother oh about when we were 1 approximately. Maybe older, maybe less. Anywho, my stepdads sister is her mom, so she's my cousin. We were born on August 30th, 1998. I'm 19 hours earlier. But we are pretty much twin cousins. She's my best friend. I love her.

Anyways, I would love to go to school with her that would be so much fun, my senior year at West Linn with her. God. I'd love it!

Xoxo.