Diana was my everything My love My life My desire My hope My dreams My absolute world
I loved her more than anything else I had ever seen, heard, touched, or even smelled. I couldn't live without her. Every day Diana and I would take a jog in the early morning, and an evening stroll. She would always comment on the weather then. Always how it was chilly or a soft warm or how it was to hot and she wanted to get the jog over with and get back to the AC. She would jog quicker than. I would laugh at her and she would give me a playfully mean look. Diana was an amazing cook. She cooked me all my favorite meals. Even when she was sick, if I would work I'd come home to a big plate or warm food. She'd look at me all sickly with a snotty smile and go back to lay down. I always would leave her some food incase she ended up being hungry. But she never was when she was sick but just in case I stashed away the left over in the fridge with a not for her.
Diana got sick quite often. And always got a check up at the doctors. It always worried me but she insisted on how she had always gotten sick so easily as a little girl. The weather made her ill so easily. But no matter the weather we went on a jog and an evening stroll. One day it rained the entire day and was quite cold. We never went out on those days. But today Diana asked me if we could, I suggested we watch a movie and relax but she insisted we must. So I grabbed my jacket and my shoes And we headed out. Diana decided we would jog longer than normal and I told her we should really go home but she said "You only live once Jackie, c'mon! Live a little won't you?" I smiled at her and ran to her "I only live for you my dear so whatever makes you happy"
Diana seemed fine for about two days until she had really gotten sick. She looked horribly and could barley move. She refused to eat and to even cook for me. I knew something had to be horribly wrong so I rushed her to the ER.
I waited in the waiting room as the doctor did scans And tests And I just waited And waited And waited And waited....
The doctor walked out of the room my dear Diana was in. He looked at me, with so much greif. I watched as Diana was rushed out of the normal room into a more serious area of the hospital. "She has cancer, we aren't sure if she will make it but.. she needs Immediate surgery. She may not live past this surgery she has a 15% survival rate, but we will do everything we can."
I dropped to my knees and stared and the ground.... My Diana? Gone? She was going to die I couldn't live without my world My everything My joy.
I stood up and walked back to our home. Past Diana's flower garden she showed to all of our neighbors and opened the door. I walked into the bathroom and opened the mirror to look at all the medicine my dear Diana took. It was supposed to make her better. All those times of her being ill and none of it worked. Maybe they'll help my pain The pain I have without my Diana
Seven pill caps laid around the sink. All the bottles empty or spilled. Most were full or just opened. My dearest Diana I cannot love without you I will not live without you I'll be meeting you in heaven
It feels cold Like that rainy day that got you so sick. I hate the rain.
As I awake I feel light Like I weight like Nothing
I awoke next to Diana in a hospital bed Was it all a dream? No She just got out of surgery Did I dream of me killing myself?
No I didn't I feel nothing but lost My dear Diana
Am I to forever live without you? No I'm still here for a reason For us to forever be together
As the months passed you still laid in that hospital bed. You family visited only twice and it pained me to see you so alone. The only constant company you had was your Doctor. The man I last saw when I was alive
His name was Markus I remember. He seemed to make sure you were in good health. I was happy to see you happy when he was there I was so glad to see you happy that someone visited Even when he didn't work he made sure you were in good health. You two seemed to become good friends quickly He would bring you flowers to make your room smell better, and he once brought you a necklace. It was your birthday so at least someone could gift you something
I would have gotten you a boquete and chocolates and taken you to a movie and we would have ate at your favorite diner. But that's my job as I was your lover. Markus is just your doctor And he wants to make sure his patient is in good health always.
More months past And your hair grew to shoulder length I missed how long your hair was before I was gone. Markus seemed to stop by our house more often. He had to make sure his patient was still okay I mean what other reason did he need? He stayed the nights even some nights when you seemed sad. How I missed holding you. Your silk like skin, you warm, light hair.
The longer I was dead The closer Markus got with you I started to dislike Markus How he would sit closer to you when watching a movie How he laid in my spot in our bed. How he used my brand of shampoo and wore my fancy shoes to your cousins wedding. Markus was taking my belongings but at least I still had my dear Diana. My everything She was the reason I was still here Still a spirit As long as I was apart of her I would share our life. But from the dead.. The more months went by the more of my special things were given to Markus. How you would now cook for him when you were sick. And how you jogged the mornings with him. And had a stroll with him in the evening. I started to feel lighter as the days passed. And I became tired. Why was I still here? Because you still must have loved me correct? What reason other than that? I would continue to live until I was forgotten completely correct? So who else other than my sweet Diana would forever remember me?
A thin outline of my Silhouette was all that was left of me. I watched as you jogged with Markus and he stopped at the water fountain you used to throw your spare coins into. Why is he stopping? You don't have any coins Oh Oh no No no That's MY Diana That's MY love MY everything MY reason TO LIVE my My My Diana She covered her mouth and shook her head yes. Markus stood from his knee and they hugged I stare at my reflection in the water. Why am I still here Diana doesn't love me She hasn't for a while She seemed to forgot me Replaced me even. So why Am I Still Here.. ...? I walk past Diana and Markus and finish my jog home. as I step up onto the porch I look to my left. The cat bowl Whisky Oh whisky How could I have forgotten you How could I You were about my age too I was older but you my friend were as old as a cat can be My wise old friend Where could you be? I had not seen you in forever.. When was your bowl last filled? Oh whisky my friend.. I'm so sorry I turn to see Diana and Markus walking up to the yard Diana turns and seems shocked I look passed her and see Whisky Across the road Oh my sweet boy I run to the side walk Diana call for him And his old paws carry him as fast as they can He falls as he is getting to weak But he stands up and walks Diana opens her arms as he comes closer Markus pulls Diana back and she yells A honk comes from Diana's left and headlights appear from no where No No no Whisky My friend How could this be I start to see black and I feel like I've been here before.. it feels cold Like rain I look back at whisky's body in the road and Diana cries for him I see a white appear over him And it starts to walk towards me I fall to my knees and stare at the ground I don't wanna leave I look up again And see white fluff Meow See you soon whisky..
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