Whisked away (Omega Deku)

I am dumb!

Izuku's POV:

I felt it too much. Every emotion was way too much for me right now. I felt like suffocating. It was hard to breathe and my fever wasn't making it any better. Then there was the fact that I still had my wings hidden in case someone was finding me.

I can't believe I just confessed like that...

Gosh, I am stupid....

At least I know he cares for me...

That's something...

I stayed for 2 hours at the place I was. It took me soo long to get my breath back under control. I knew I was breathing heavily and I also knew that I had to go back before I would collapse again.

Thank god, I could sort out my feeling....

That was definitely too much for me...

Damn insecurity....

The anxiety of being left alone....

I can't deal with that thought after I found him!

He is my mate.

If he doesn't accept me then I am bound to be alone for the rest of my life....

I still love him.

I should be honest.

I hurt him even tho I didn't want to.

It was just too much for me.... Jealousy, anxiety, hate, anger, love, and passion as well as envy.... It was too much... and then his sadness mixing in this all.... Gosh... I had to get away from him.

The closer we are the more I felt his emotions... I should have told him that earlier... I need to make this clear.

I wonder why I couldn't differentiate between mine and his... I usually can do that but... that time... Nah! No chance...

Welp, it's getting late, I should get back.

It's been exactly 2 hours that I was sitting there closing my eyes and just trying to control my breathing to stabilize my emotions. It definitely helped that he wasn't there. However, now that he wasn't, I started missing him.

So I went back to the tower and looked around before opening my wings and flying up. I knew it was bad and I knew my state but I missed him soo much. I needed his warmth, the hugs he could give me. I wanted him to hold me in his hands, smelling his sweet but burned scent of caramel, and then kiss him. I wanted to just be close to him now.

Once I flew up, I landed on the windowsill and looked inside the room to find them all there. The fairies, my fairies Aquana and Flamra came at me first but they were more concerned about my wings, while I ignored everything and just started walking, then running before pouncing at a Dandelion who was standing up the moment he saw me. However, he went down pretty fast after I tackled him.

Me: I am sorry.... I just... I should have told you earlier that as a fae and with you being my mate, I can feel your emotions. It just got hard to differentiate between mine and yours.... It got too much for me.... I am sorry I made you sad Kacchan.

I am so sorry.

I hope you can forgive me and still take me in.

I hugged him tightly ignoring the fever, the dizziness, my headache as well as the pain I felt from hiding my wings.

Me (whispering): I am so sorry...

I could only repeat my words. There was nothing I could do right now other than that.

Kacchan(Hugs): Hey hey, it's ok. I understand, I'm sorry too, for pushing all of that emotion onto you.

The moment he hugged me back, I let out a hissing sound as the pain was extremely high. I ignored my pain for way too much and now it was kicking in hard. I couldn't even feel the pain from all the mixed-up emotions I had.

Me: You didn't.... I just... You know, I should have been able to tell the difference and I am trying not to spy on your emotions but it got out of control... something like that shouldn't have happened. I couldn't handle mine so this was why it happened.... So sorry. I shouldn't have made you sad....

I started feeling dizzy and I knew this was a sign that my fever went back up a lot.

Kacchan: Em, bring the cream over, his fever's going back up.

Me: I am fine... I... Kacchan....

Kacchan: No you are not, you're burning up... let me take care of you, please... maybe that's why your emotions went haywire, you're not in shape to deal with this kind of thing.

Me: Probably.... On that topic, could you maybe not touch my wings... it hurts right now. They are very sensitive and I made it worse....

Kacchan(Smiling softly): Of course, now get some rest, you look tired... don't worry, I'm not going anywhere.

Me: ... mh.... Thanks, Kacchan... for everything.

I was still around his neck and decided to just let go of my consciousness as pain and emotions flooded over me.