Rant book

Feelings

I'm confused I figured out there's this thing called Cupiosexual and now I think I might be it I want a romantic relationship so bad but i can't tell between romantic and platonic feelings and whenever I think I have romantic later on i realize it's platonic The thing is I'm in a relationship things are going great but sometimes I dunno if I actual like them and it hurts cause I don't know what's wrong and what's right I can't talk to them about this because I think that's obvious I don't wanna lose them but I can't help it. I've also been really deep in like a hole of depression and I haven't figured myself out yet so that makes it more of a mess and I don't know if I've confused myself and I don't wanna hurt them they mean so much but idk if it's a romantic or a platonic way it's stupid. I probably shoudnt be a questioning this but I'm an idiot and I'm going to end up hurting someone and its not good. How would I even tell them? It's a struggle I wish I didn't struggle with telling the difference or even know if I feel romantic attration at all but ik i want it :(.